Lost My 17 Yr Old Fluffy Monday Night Options

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Monday night I had to put my beautiful 17 yr old cat Fluffy to sleep. She had been suffering from CRF and over this past weekend started to have some issues. Late Monday night she started having a seizure so I took her to the hospital. She had another one there and we decided it was time. Her little body was giving out and we didn't want her to suffer. I am just a mess. I work from home and we were together 24/7. I basically took care of all of her needs and she was a very loving sweet cat. I had a cat bed on my desk so she could be with me while I worked - she wouldn't have it any other way. She loved to be on your lap and constantly be loved on. Now the house is empty and I feel lost as the routine with her has been broken.
Fluffy was a very special cat to me. I know all owners feel their cat or dog was/is special but you know how there is one animal that just seems to have a special quality? Something about them just rises higher than the rest? She was like that. I've had other cats but she was definately a special being. I was always convinced she was an angel sent to me.
Anyway, I'm working and trying to get through the week and keep myself occupied. I know in the future I'll have new fur babies to bring joy into my life but right now I just feel like I lost my best companion in the world.

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Today is Monday, Presidents Day and our company is closed. I met my Father for lunch so it was nice to get out of the house. When I came home from lunch the sun was streaming in the backside of house. I could picture Fluffy sitting on the floor, feeling that good old sun just beaming in on her. I started to think is there a reason why we have these animals in our lives? Are we meant to be stewards for them or are they in our lives to teach us things.
With Fluffy she was so sweet and loving she didn't have a mean bone in her body. Only bit me once in 17 years and never hissed or growled. It was like she wasn't even a cat. So I was thinking was she sent to us to teach us how to be patient and loving? How to give yourself to another being?
It's always said that cats pick us, not the other way around. But I wonder if there is a reason why we end up with the beings we end up with. Is it some cosmological reasoning?
Something with Fluffy always made people want to take care of her. Even people who weren't cat people fell in love with Fluffy. There was something about her that drew people to her. I wonder if that was her job so to speak.