I Lost My Best Friend Bun-bun.. Options

[george]

A few days ago we returned home after a few days to fine our family pet cat Bun-Bun having trouble breathing, we took her to the vet and quickly he said to put her down because of heart and lung problems. This pet was a family member for 17 yrs, a witness to the growth and development of our family, a family member who was alway there, always gave love alway sat quiet aside as we went on our daily duty's but was always there. I sweet face cat with a heart of gold. She touched our family so deeply and as left a hole in our lives. We regret doing what we did, maybe there was another way, maybe it was her time, maybe it did not have to happen. The entire family has been crying for 4 days, none of us can eat or sleep, or work, or go to school or work. We cant get over this. Maybe we made a mistake. I cant forgive myself for doing this to a family member. This was not our first pet or have we not been threw this type of thing before, it just happen so fast that I regret not giving it more time to develop. Our other pets all crying as much as the people in the family are. I cant bare to think of this as a mistake. I have tried to seek help for grief counseling but have not been able to find any.I am so pissed off at the vet and myself for jumping the gun. I don't know what to do..I failed my family. SOB why wasn't I given more time to think about this. Why can I have that day to do over ?

[sissycat]

You can't get over it in just a few days. It will take some time. I hurts so bad! I have done all the things you speak of. If you were to go back and read all my old posts. I asked the same questions. I thought I was crazy, but no we are not!!
Everything you feel is part of this awful healing process. I blamed myself for her death. (it was an accident with a car) We can't let it eat away at us forever. At some point it will ease a little.
Coming here to talk with others was my help. Hope you continue to come here.
When you feel like it we would love for you to share some happy or funny stories about Bun Bun. Maybe about some of her habbits. I know it helped me to talk about mine. Even though I bawled my eyes out while writing I had some relief to know someone out there took the time to read my stories and actually cared.

Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!