Heartbroken & Lost Options

[frank]

On Sunday, my Lhasa Apso jumped out of my truck and into the road. I called him attempted to alert the driver but he was hit by a pick up truck. I ran to him and held him. He died right in my arms. I was crynig, holding him in the middle of the road. This all happened in about 10 seconds. The bad thing is that I witnessed the entire event and I keep replaying it over and over again in my mind. A good samaritan stopped. I must have been in shock. She went to the emergency vet with me but it was too late. Simon was my best friend and I miss him so much. He was 2 years old and strong and handsome and everything. Everyone, (ie), the vet, the groomer, friends and strangers alike love him. And he loved everybody back. I start crying at unexpected times throughout the day. He was so full of life and joy. We went for 2 walks each day, and he appreciated it and always conveyed that to me with a smile. He woke me every morning at sunrise and when he saw me, his eyes and smile just kept saying thank you, thank you, thank you! He changed my life and I am devastaed without him around. I relied on him more than he relied on me. I am still hoping that the vet will call and say that he's OK. I miss him and feel sick. I just want to be stronger for him and somehow get through this. It was so unexpected and we were running and playing literally minutes before this happened. I'm trying to figure out how to get through this without completely falling apart.

[LoveThem]

I love that picture of Simon and Jake. I am glad you have Jake. I found it harder when I didn't have any other furbaby in my home after I lost one.

It hurts so very much and we all have felt that hurt. You are not alone ...the pain you feel...we all share with you. Kind of makes it all a little bit easier.

Write anytime you feel like it and tell us some stories about Simon that is a memory that makes you smile. Post more pictures if you feel like it...we all love to look at pictures...pictures are the good, happy memories that are priceless. We don't think about it when we take the picture but later on, we realize it was important to do.

It is only natural when one loses a best friend to feel so many emotions, it seems overwhelming but in time we learn to control the tears, the grief....and then some days out of the blue, we can be overwhelmed again...that's natural too.

I am so very deeply sorry about Simon but I am glad he was a part of your life..that you two were able to enjoy much together. We know that the pain of losing them is never greater than the joy of knowing them and it is that joy that lets us survive the physical loss in time. We, however, keep them in our hearts forever and miss them and love them for eternity and we hope we all are reunited one day in the place they call Heaven cause if they aren't there, it wouldn't be Heaven and as a member once said...if they aren't there...I want to go where they are. I echo that thought.

Hugs, Frank....it is okay to do whatever makes you feel better, whether it is to cry, to vent, etc.
There is no hurry to do things...time has a way of going by no matter what we are doing.

Take care...I wish you peace and healing and know that in time those wishes will come true.

Judy