Sadness And Guilt, Death of Bosco Options

[msboom808]

I have never participated in an online forum before but I am incredible sad right now. Yesterday morning, my little Bosco was hit by a car down the street from our house after I let him out for his morning bathroom routine.

I only had Bosco for 5 weeks, I rescued him from the Human Society and he is the first dog I have ever owned. Since I was a little girl, I had wanted a dog and in December, my boyfriend of three years, Mike, said I could get a dog. Mike and I grew incredible attached to Bosco, taking him to the North Shore, out to eat, out with us when we ran errands to the dog park, etc. The incredible human/animal bond was formed strong within a week.

The grief I am feeling right now is unlike anything I have every experienced. I am 28 years old and this is my first real experience with grief. Mike and I had a memorial last night for Bosco, burying him in our backyard and planting flowers, forming a rock border on the grave and sprinkling lei on top (we live in Hawaii).

I cried all day yesterday, I had to text my co-worker that I could not make it into work. This morning, I burst into tears when I went into the kitchen to make coffee and looked at the spot on the couch where Bosco slept and realized that this morning, he was not there but instead he was in his grave.

Bosco brought us so much joy. We do not have children, so had formed our little family. I was so excited to have him and his live was cut far too short. The 5 weeks Bosco came to live with us is time I will always cherish. The howling at ambulances, hanging out the car windows, 6 a.m. face licks, eager and excitement when I return home from work to take him for a walk, him hanging out with me in the kitchen eagerly awaiting a treat, etc.

Mike and I are incredibly sad. I am seeking comfort and support online because although we have each other and I am so grateful for it, I feel the need to express my feelings through writing about Bosco and the overwhelming grief I am experiencing. I had no idea this was so hard. I also had no idea I would be experiencing this so soon. I miss my little buddy Bosco. My heart cries for him.

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[ann]

I'm so deeply sorry for your loss. No matter how long or short they are with us, we learn a lot from them. This bond will never be broken. You are still young with a lot of busy years ahead of you. Time and lifes distraction will eventually help ease the pain. Think of all the bonds you will have in the future. I hope when your heart heals you will accept another into your lives. Accidents happen, it's so hard to protect them all the time. Please do not feel this was your fault. Being in their new surroundings they are curious about everything, just like a kid the minute you take your eye off them.......trouble..
You've come to a great support group. We are all here to help eachother. I hope you will find comfort here. You will find just reading others posts and responses helpful. No need to respond if you don't want to. Also, lots of helpful articles and websites to go to on dealing with pet loss. Bosco was a beautiful dog I'm so sorry your time was cut short. Now you know, after waiting all these years for a dog, what they mean by unconditional love. They are great, and you will have many more in the future..In the mean time, don't let anyone dictate how or how long to greive. The only one who can do that is you.. Stay well...Hugs.. Ann