Sadness And Guilt, Death of Bosco Options

[msboom808]

I have never participated in an online forum before but I am incredible sad right now. Yesterday morning, my little Bosco was hit by a car down the street from our house after I let him out for his morning bathroom routine.

I only had Bosco for 5 weeks, I rescued him from the Human Society and he is the first dog I have ever owned. Since I was a little girl, I had wanted a dog and in December, my boyfriend of three years, Mike, said I could get a dog. Mike and I grew incredible attached to Bosco, taking him to the North Shore, out to eat, out with us when we ran errands to the dog park, etc. The incredible human/animal bond was formed strong within a week.

The grief I am feeling right now is unlike anything I have every experienced. I am 28 years old and this is my first real experience with grief. Mike and I had a memorial last night for Bosco, burying him in our backyard and planting flowers, forming a rock border on the grave and sprinkling lei on top (we live in Hawaii).

I cried all day yesterday, I had to text my co-worker that I could not make it into work. This morning, I burst into tears when I went into the kitchen to make coffee and looked at the spot on the couch where Bosco slept and realized that this morning, he was not there but instead he was in his grave.

Bosco brought us so much joy. We do not have children, so had formed our little family. I was so excited to have him and his live was cut far too short. The 5 weeks Bosco came to live with us is time I will always cherish. The howling at ambulances, hanging out the car windows, 6 a.m. face licks, eager and excitement when I return home from work to take him for a walk, him hanging out with me in the kitchen eagerly awaiting a treat, etc.

Mike and I are incredibly sad. I am seeking comfort and support online because although we have each other and I am so grateful for it, I feel the need to express my feelings through writing about Bosco and the overwhelming grief I am experiencing. I had no idea this was so hard. I also had no idea I would be experiencing this so soon. I miss my little buddy Bosco. My heart cries for him.

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[Flossie's Mom]

What a sweet little dog Bosco is. The look in his eyes reminds me of the little dog we rescued.... no, the little dog who rescued US in June. She looks somewhat like Bosco in the face but she is solid color and more red. She puts her ears back like that & looks up at us.

I've lost several pets over the years and none are an easy loss. So I have become so over protective that my family get very upset with me. But the one I insisted on doing things MY way, lived to be 17-1/2. She had many medical challenges over the majority of that time but I couldn't give up on her as she was a first class trooper.

For several years I had said that when Flossie left us, I did not want another animal. I'd lost my last cat in 2005 & have had from one to as many as fifteen animals at any given time for over 40 years so felt the last 14 years of special care for my poodle was really all that should be required of me. She was worth it but I claimed I wanted a rest from caregiving. Plus I felt the loss of her was going to hit me so hard that I did not want to go through that anymore. I still don't but it kinda "goes with the territory" I think.

For us, having the new dog and also a cat have been a lifesaver. Our WeeBee, that reminds me of your Bosco, has wrapped us around her little paw like I never thought could happen again. We are amazed every single day at how easy she is to be around. Fits herself in, has taken virtually NO training (a little with the potty as she lived on the streets and seemed like she is unable to hold it for a lon time) She is my husbands dog and he is not good at this sort of thing since I always handled that end of it. She seems to know that as she comes to me. This cat that was given to me (that I also didn't want) has swept me off my feet also.

So much for the NO MORE PETS! Truth be known, way last spring I had been searching the shelter animals listed locally. JUST LOOKING you know.

In any event, you will eventually be able to return to a more normal daily routine. It will not come easily or maybe not even soon. But because you loved Bosco so much, I feel you too will be a sucker for some big brown eyes (or blue). There are many, many more like Bosco that need love and home such as you can give. Bosco will lead you to one when the time is right.

It is disgusting to me the number of animals in my area that are abandonded, abused or just taken to the pound. There are a few right now that are as old as 10 & 12 that have been taken in.......... Something I could never do.

You'll find much comfort here.......... check in often and let us know how you are doing. Hugs to both of you and Bosco today.

Ginger