Heartbroken & Lost Options

[frank]

On Sunday, my Lhasa Apso jumped out of my truck and into the road. I called him attempted to alert the driver but he was hit by a pick up truck. I ran to him and held him. He died right in my arms. I was crynig, holding him in the middle of the road. This all happened in about 10 seconds. The bad thing is that I witnessed the entire event and I keep replaying it over and over again in my mind. A good samaritan stopped. I must have been in shock. She went to the emergency vet with me but it was too late. Simon was my best friend and I miss him so much. He was 2 years old and strong and handsome and everything. Everyone, (ie), the vet, the groomer, friends and strangers alike love him. And he loved everybody back. I start crying at unexpected times throughout the day. He was so full of life and joy. We went for 2 walks each day, and he appreciated it and always conveyed that to me with a smile. He woke me every morning at sunrise and when he saw me, his eyes and smile just kept saying thank you, thank you, thank you! He changed my life and I am devastaed without him around. I relied on him more than he relied on me. I am still hoping that the vet will call and say that he's OK. I miss him and feel sick. I just want to be stronger for him and somehow get through this. It was so unexpected and we were running and playing literally minutes before this happened. I'm trying to figure out how to get through this without completely falling apart.

[cindy]

Frank, I'm so sorry about the loss of your Simon. I lost my Winston December 15th in almost the same way. I was taking him on his morning walk - we were happy and playing together. All of a sudden he jerked out into the street to get a piece of food he saw, and he slipped out of his collar and was instantly hit by a delivery truck - also, like your Simon, gone instantly. I still have nightmares of that image; it re-plays over and over again in my head. It's been over a month, and I find that it's getting harder not easier for me. Winston, like your Simon, was everything to me. He made me laugh, he cheered me up when I was sad - he was everything! After feeling crappy for days, I needed help - I found this site on my google search for how to cope with the loss of a pet. It has helped me alot knowing that others are feeling exactly what I'm feeling, that I'm not alone, and that I'm not crazy for crying daily over my Winnie.