Ubukitty, A wonderful friend and companion Options

[Ubukitty's Pal]

All,

I just registered with LS this afternoon and was totally amazed to find such a wonderful site full of loving and caring people.

My loving companion of 20+ years died Wednesday morning from chronic kidney failure. She was a black long-haired kitty
who found me at the animal shelter back in 1988 - only 2 weeks old. I bottle fed her and weened her and we were together
from that time on.

When I awoke Wednesday morning she could not stand and barely could lift her head... and about 30 minutes later she had
a seizure and last gasp of air before passing away in my arms. Ever since then my grief has been overwhelming and the
crying just won't stop - I just want my baby back to give her more kisses and rubs and to tell her how much I love her.

I awoke at our normal 7:06am wakeup and eat time and was in the kitchen before I stopped myself, and after working
outside on the farm I still came into the house this morning and headed straight for the bedroom to check on her as was
my habit.

Today when I found LS it made a huge difference in my not feeling alone with this horrible depression and feeling of guilt
on not spending every moment at her side when she was with me; and now all I can think of is how she died and of what
else I could have done to keep us together.

I just had to tell someone about our seperation who would be able to understand.

Thanks for being here and letting me share.

[Flossie's Mom]

Dear H....

I love the journal idea and if you figure a way to take a scrapbook along, please share with the rest of us so we can do the same! Big party at Rainbow Bridge with all of us, our scrapbooks and babies sitting beside us enjoying the wonderful times together all over again.

Trying to remember all the good times seems to help me somewhat too. What fun we had sometimes! Hopefully the memories of those times will help to heal the pain of losing them over the difficult days ahead. Supposed to be a happy season but many sad parents this time of year.

I swore for the last 2-3 years that I would not have another pet as I had gotten so attached to her and been through so much with her I did not want to go there ever again. HELLO................ even before she was gone we acquired 2 new babies and they have helped with the emptiness.

Thinking of you today. Another milestone on this roller coaster ride of grieving for your Ubukitty.

Ginger