Ubukitty, A wonderful friend and companion Options

[Ubukitty's Pal]

All,

I just registered with LS this afternoon and was totally amazed to find such a wonderful site full of loving and caring people.

My loving companion of 20+ years died Wednesday morning from chronic kidney failure. She was a black long-haired kitty
who found me at the animal shelter back in 1988 - only 2 weeks old. I bottle fed her and weened her and we were together
from that time on.

When I awoke Wednesday morning she could not stand and barely could lift her head... and about 30 minutes later she had
a seizure and last gasp of air before passing away in my arms. Ever since then my grief has been overwhelming and the
crying just won't stop - I just want my baby back to give her more kisses and rubs and to tell her how much I love her.

I awoke at our normal 7:06am wakeup and eat time and was in the kitchen before I stopped myself, and after working
outside on the farm I still came into the house this morning and headed straight for the bedroom to check on her as was
my habit.

Today when I found LS it made a huge difference in my not feeling alone with this horrible depression and feeling of guilt
on not spending every moment at her side when she was with me; and now all I can think of is how she died and of what
else I could have done to keep us together.

I just had to tell someone about our seperation who would be able to understand.

Thanks for being here and letting me share.

[Ubukitty's Pal]

Hey babygirl,

Well winter has arrived in full force with the wind and then the cold, foggy and dreary days. The worst thing about this
weather is that this was the best times we had for stayin inside and cuddling up together which I have missed much
lately. Also it has prevented me from working on any outside projects which I have been focusing on to keep me busy
and my mind off of the fact that you're not with me now.

For some reason you were really on my mind last night; I was really depressed all evening and cried some while holding
my favorite picture of you... you know the one - where you were perched on the coffee table with one ear back and the
other forward, looking so bemused with me taking your picture. I keep that photo right above your urn with your wooden
kitty sitting right beside it - exactly like it was in the photo. Actually one day this week I glanced at it and thought for sure
that both ears were back as if you were scolding me for something (which happened alot) and then looked again and
thought I saw it with both ears forward like you had forgave me and all was okay (I admit when this happened I had been
wondering why you had left me even though you had told me not to do that).

I really value these weekly letters to keep us up-to-date; I am planning a special note to you this Friday as it will be
one month since we parted. Do you remember the time we were watching the movie "Whatever happened to Baby Jane"
and I told you that if you had to go, I would do like the song says (except with our special changes):

I'm sending a letter to 'Bukitty
To 'Bukitty in heaven above
I'm sending a letter to 'Bukitty
My 'Bukitty that I'm dreaming of...

I love you sweetie and am dreaming of you all the time! Miss you babygirl! We WILL be together again!

H

[Candy's Dad]

I was very sadden to learn of your ubukitty's death. I've been reading up alot on kitty's lately, since i adopted a 5 week old few weeks ago and I worry that one day she'll have kidney issue (I read alot of about kidney issues in cats). So I'm starting her of with some good, no grain cat food and hopefully I can spare her from that, but it's anyone's guess if that would even help.

Please hang in there and no we understand what you are going through and I know this place has helped me alot in coming to terms with my Candy's death.

Take care

Candy's Dad
Hal (also Harold)