I Miss My Baby. Does Anything Happen For A Reason? Options

[RipHendrix]

Does anybody think that some things happen for a reason??? I miss my baby chihuahua Hendrix so much! I've never dealt with loss like this before and its so painful. I feel so much guilt and sadness. He was only almost 4 years old! While i was gone christmas shopping the other day I came back and there were messages on the phone from my little brother's best friends mother. She said to come over right away because they had Hendrix and he was not doing well. I didnt realize the message was a couple hours old and when we got o their home nobody was there. Later when they got home from church they said that they had been driving by when they saw a neighbor dog with something in its mouth, that looked like a rabbit, but it was realy my Hendrix. They told me this big dog acted as though it didnt know Hendrix was a real dog but a toy, because he is so fluffy and small. They said they got him away from the big dog and he was fine at first, that they couldnt find any puncture wounds, but when they went to take him home to my empty house Hendrix would not move and he looked frozen like in shock and his legs wouldnt work. They took him to their home and there he started having great trouble breathing. They thought he might have punctured a lung. He struggled for two or three hours before he died, and this was only about an hour before i got home! I wish so badly i hadnt gone shopping. i dont need clothes or stupid objects i just need my baby! My brother hadnt brought his phone either so they werent able to contact us. I was just wondering if anyone beleives that things happen for a reason because i cant deal with this guilt. I know that if i had been there this wuldnt of happened and he would have held on longer because he loves me so much and he wouldnt have been so scared if he was with someone he knew. I can imagine how scared and hurt he was i wasnt even there.

Im so depressed and everything i do reminds me of him. I have two other chihuahuas, Hendrix's son and the mama. and they seem so sad all the time too. I went to get Hendrix cremated and it was so hard to say goodbye to his body. Its realy hard for me to realize that he's not with his body anymore, hes somewhere better. I love hima nd miss him and i cant get out of the house now. He realy was like my baby, not like a pet. What can i do to feel better? I dont want to try and forget him because thats impossible and he will always be my baby but i need suggestions for helping me not feel like this it just hurts way too bad and im so tired of crying.

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[RipHendrix]

Hendrix must have run off out of the yard because it happened in our behind neighbors yard. Their dogs were off their leash and their owner was talking with my neighbor who found him in the road. I realy do hope he is in a great place now. He was so happy and playful and silly. Its only been 2 days since this happened and i am so crushed i just feel like i need someone to talk to who can relate. Hendrix was the sweetest little guy. He would sleep with me and cuddle on my neck. He loved to be outside. Im so glad a still have one of his babies, even though they look nothing alike he still reminds me of Hendrix and it makes me sad, but happy at the same time.

Can dogs cry? My two other dogs' eyes have been so watery and they have been moping. I feel like a lot of the people around me dont understand that he wasnt 'just a dog'. he was my baby, like my own child. I loved and will always love him unconditionaly like the way he loved me and would jump up and down like 2 feet in the air when i got home. I miss how he would take every treat and put them in a pile under the table and guard them. I miss how he played with my other dogs and his noises that were so cute. I miss how he would automatically roll onto him back so i could rub his belly when i picked him up and the look on his face when he was about to fall asleep.

I felt so terrible taking him to the place to get cremated. It was like i was abandoning him there even though it was just his body, the way he looked he still looked completely alive and i could swear i kept seeing his eyes move though i realy didnt. I just worry about them treating his body with respect and not like just an object. The guy at the cremation place seemed sympathetic, but barely spoke anything but business and it only took 5 or 10 minutes. I didnt feel like i waanted to leave my baby there. I had to go back and see him one more time but it hurt so bad and i cried so much. I just dont understand why his life was so short. I hope so badly i will get to be with him again someday.

This is Hendrix in the summer when he went and played in the mud and him with a big bunch of his puppies curled up. he was so sweet

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