Ubukitty, A wonderful friend and companion Options

[Ubukitty's Pal]

All,

I just registered with LS this afternoon and was totally amazed to find such a wonderful site full of loving and caring people.

My loving companion of 20+ years died Wednesday morning from chronic kidney failure. She was a black long-haired kitty
who found me at the animal shelter back in 1988 - only 2 weeks old. I bottle fed her and weened her and we were together
from that time on.

When I awoke Wednesday morning she could not stand and barely could lift her head... and about 30 minutes later she had
a seizure and last gasp of air before passing away in my arms. Ever since then my grief has been overwhelming and the
crying just won't stop - I just want my baby back to give her more kisses and rubs and to tell her how much I love her.

I awoke at our normal 7:06am wakeup and eat time and was in the kitchen before I stopped myself, and after working
outside on the farm I still came into the house this morning and headed straight for the bedroom to check on her as was
my habit.

Today when I found LS it made a huge difference in my not feeling alone with this horrible depression and feeling of guilt
on not spending every moment at her side when she was with me; and now all I can think of is how she died and of what
else I could have done to keep us together.

I just had to tell someone about our seperation who would be able to understand.

Thanks for being here and letting me share.

[Ubukitty's Pal]

Ubukitty,

Hi baby girl. It is Wednesday again and time for me to tell you I miss you more and more and sometimes really don't
think I can live without you.

As the time is passing by I am realizing how much you brought to me even when you had been much less able to be
active over the last couple of years. Knowing you were waiting for me kept me anchored in my other life activities
more than I had comprehended.

I have been working on the electric fence to keep our bovine neighbors away from the chicken cages, but they continue
to press as close to the house as possible and have been keeping me awake at night again - I remember how you
used to watch them out the window and tell me when they were around.

I love you so very much and worry how to fill the hole in my heart; I guess time will tell how we deal with it once and
for all.

More later baby girl.

H