Ubukitty, A wonderful friend and companion Options

[Ubukitty's Pal]

All,

I just registered with LS this afternoon and was totally amazed to find such a wonderful site full of loving and caring people.

My loving companion of 20+ years died Wednesday morning from chronic kidney failure. She was a black long-haired kitty
who found me at the animal shelter back in 1988 - only 2 weeks old. I bottle fed her and weened her and we were together
from that time on.

When I awoke Wednesday morning she could not stand and barely could lift her head... and about 30 minutes later she had
a seizure and last gasp of air before passing away in my arms. Ever since then my grief has been overwhelming and the
crying just won't stop - I just want my baby back to give her more kisses and rubs and to tell her how much I love her.

I awoke at our normal 7:06am wakeup and eat time and was in the kitchen before I stopped myself, and after working
outside on the farm I still came into the house this morning and headed straight for the bedroom to check on her as was
my habit.

Today when I found LS it made a huge difference in my not feeling alone with this horrible depression and feeling of guilt
on not spending every moment at her side when she was with me; and now all I can think of is how she died and of what
else I could have done to keep us together.

I just had to tell someone about our seperation who would be able to understand.

Thanks for being here and letting me share.

[Ubukitty's Pal]

Ubukitty,

I want you to know again that I love you so very much and miss you. Your ashes came home yesterday and are
now on the mantle with your pictures and fur resting on your favorite red blankie. You have been gone a full week but
it has seemed like an eternity down here.

If you can please come home to me - there will always be a special place for you now and when we are reunited someday.

In your honor I am going to adopt a couple of homeless kitties so they can enjoy our love and companionship - but again
a special spot is always waiting for you to be with us.

Looking back over the last few weeks we had together, I now understand you were telling me not to cry or worry; when
you first were ill you pushed your head against my cheek and had the most understanding and knowledgeable
compassion in your eyes when all the while it was you who should have received such feelings from me but I was too
overcome with grief to adequately express it to you.

That last night when you sat up and placed your head against my chest and rested against my cheek I now know you
were telling me it was time and not to be sad and I will do my best to make your wish come true.

If you listen you will hear me call out to you until we are together again.

Home is always here for you baby girl.

Love, Harold