Ubukitty, A wonderful friend and companion Options

[Ubukitty's Pal]

All,

I just registered with LS this afternoon and was totally amazed to find such a wonderful site full of loving and caring people.

My loving companion of 20+ years died Wednesday morning from chronic kidney failure. She was a black long-haired kitty
who found me at the animal shelter back in 1988 - only 2 weeks old. I bottle fed her and weened her and we were together
from that time on.

When I awoke Wednesday morning she could not stand and barely could lift her head... and about 30 minutes later she had
a seizure and last gasp of air before passing away in my arms. Ever since then my grief has been overwhelming and the
crying just won't stop - I just want my baby back to give her more kisses and rubs and to tell her how much I love her.

I awoke at our normal 7:06am wakeup and eat time and was in the kitchen before I stopped myself, and after working
outside on the farm I still came into the house this morning and headed straight for the bedroom to check on her as was
my habit.

Today when I found LS it made a huge difference in my not feeling alone with this horrible depression and feeling of guilt
on not spending every moment at her side when she was with me; and now all I can think of is how she died and of what
else I could have done to keep us together.

I just had to tell someone about our seperation who would be able to understand.

Thanks for being here and letting me share.

[Ubukitty's Pal]

Thank you LOVETHEM for your wonderful message.

I am getting so much valuable hints from everyone - being only 2 days I pulled back the dresser in the bedroom and fond a tuft of hair just a few minutes ago. It is now safe in an envelope to be a wonderful keepsake of my baby girl.

I am hoping to have some pictures of her on here asap - but she looked so very much like your avatar. She was shiny black with a hint of grey fur on her belly - yellow green eyes which always seemed so wide open to the world.

She always sat with her front paws crossed and her ears perked up until that last morning; whenever I would touch her she would talk to me with a quiet "mewap" sound which I still can hear quite clearly.

As I am still not thinking clearly, I would loving appreciate any other ideas on keeping her close.

Bless you and thank you again

Ubukitty's Pal