My Girl Is In Heaven Reunited...she Sent Me Proof! Options

[kodiak'smom]

Hi everyone,
You have been so kind in helping me the past week w/the stressful decline and ultimate death of my beautiful girl Kodiak.

I must share 2 stories with you, that may help you. I know only a true pet lover could understand and believe what I am about to tell.

Before Kodiak died I told her in the car on the way to the vet to send me pennies once she got to heaven, I told her I would be on the look out for them, my husband and son heard me say it. (The idea came 6 years earlier, I did this w/my cat before he died, that too was amazing, I will tell you in a minute).

After Kodiak died yesterday...
Unbelievably as we left the vet (if you read my other posts, I had screamed and collapsed I am now told at the moment she died my unbelievable grief errupted, I was not watching but about 20 ft away, w/my back turned away. We had it done outside on the grass).

In the car on the way home, I was a mess and began to the search for a Xanax I hoped I had in a pill bottle in my purse - I opened a pill bottle I carry hoping I had a Xanax in there. Shaking, I dumped it out in my hand and found one - thank God.

As I put the pills back into the bottle I was becoming frustrated as I noticed and paid no attention to the fact I couldn't get them back in the bottle. I felt coins in my hand and I wondered why I had coins in my hand angrily I tried to force them in the bottle they wouldn't fit...I looked down and 2 pennies were in my hand. Where did they come from? I swear to you who carries pennies in their pill bottle and the coins would not go in, if they were in there in the first place (which they were not) how did they come out? I doubt any of us have coins in our pill bottle, I KNOW I didn't. I felt this sense of relief...there were 2 pennies, as if they appeared in my hand.

I quickly showed my husband and son we were all crying anyway and now were stunned to silence, as I held out my hand and said "LOOK!" We each tried to get the message behind the 2 pennies...did the 2 pennies mean she was reunited w/ a cat we once had that disappeared she loved SO much? My son said one was shiny and one old - he believe it depictied her life from start to finish w/us. My husbands take was the pennies were meant for our 2 remaining dogs. I thought it meant she was reunited with our darling Kona (cat who disappeared, we surely know had to have died).

Today, I went for a drive to clear my head - it didn't help. When I got home, my husband was standing in the front yard as I got out of the car he was raking leaves. He came running tears in his eyes and said look what was uner the leaf pile - my heart filled w/joy again - he found another penny (at the bottom of a leaf pile!) the year 1997 - the year she was born. The penny was so old and beaten, you could make out the number '97 holding it under a light. I said, "That was meant for YOU" She was VERY close to him and loved him with all her heart. It meant to me she was old in her years, the unusually worn penny - said it all.

Now this story may seem unreal, but I have yet another. The following story inspired me to tell Kodiak to send me pennies when she got to heaven and honestly as I said it to her, I never believed for one second it would happen twice in a lifetime.

Going back 6 years ago - I had to make the choice to put my 3rd (of 4) cats to sleep. I had him 17 years, needless to say I loved him with all my heart. I told him in the car on the way to the vet, "Jinx (his name) send me pennies from heaven when you get there". My husband and son both heard me say it. I was too distraught to go into the vet they met me in the parking lot and took him and his comfy bed, I asked they use it when they put him to sleep.

Now keep in mind - he was the 3rd cat that had died in a few year period - I had one remaining cat at home. When we got home, we pulled up in the driveway, I got out of the car first, I was crying head down and there lay 3 pennies in a row. I picked them up and one of the pennies had a 4th penny stuck to it under it - invisible until I picked them up. I felt joy hit my heart, I knew he was "home". I picked up the pennies went in the house, the vet had a left a message that Jinx had an uneventful peaceful death immediately after we left the vet. The 3 pennies made sense, one for each of my cats that had died, but I wondered for months what the 4th penny meant. Within 6 months my 4th cat vanished (along with 3 other neighbor cats within a few month span) and after searching for months I never found her -and then the 4th penny made sense.

The bitter-sweet ending to this story - as I searched endlessly for months for my lost cat - I found 5 kittens someone had abandon in the bushes behind a grocery store. They were tiny, near death and I took all 5 home fully intending to find them homes. They were quite feral and I realized no one could take care of them the way I could, so I kept them and still have them.

Amazing? Some may think coincendence. Not me. Tonight again out of nowhere there was a penny lying on the hearth of the fireplace, she layed there often in the days before her death. I called my son and husband to look and we actually laughed saying, "That is just like Kodiak, crazy fun and now getting carried away". I wonder if more pennies in odd places await in the coming weeks....if not, I am assured and she has made her point.

My hand on a bible these are true stories (I am a Christian) so I don't take that lightly.

I hope this helps someone.

Much love to all of you and prayers as we deal with the some of the greatest losses we will ever experience, but be assured, we'll see them again.

Dana

[kodiak'smom]

Well first about the cats, yes we believe they are all from the same litter. They were all together, same age, very tiny and starving. They wouldn't come to me. I ran into the nearby store bought a bag of kitten food and dumped it in the area they were "living". I immediately told the SPCA about them, but they wouldn't go get them and told me I'd have to trap them and bring them in. I rented a trap from a nearby feed supply store and that is how I caught them, one at a time - I put tuna in a cage basically they walk in and the door snaps shut. I thought there were only 4, but set the trap 6 times total and 5 was it...nothing caught on the 6th try.

It was a challenge, they lived in a large cage together for a few months - they had no trust in me, then I moved them to a spare bedroom - the taming process literally took a year they were so wild. Now they are such awesome cats, I never thought I'd love cats like I loved "the first generation" (that is what we call our first 4) but I do - it is a different "feeling" love, but a love just as strong.

Pennies stories - I am glad you liked them. You know only certain people really believe this stuff, but how can you deny these signs we get - whether they be pennies or something else? They are signs - I don't believe anything different, these awesome "gifts" give such love and comfort us here and they want us to know life does go on for them.

My son told my dog before she died "Don't be afraid Kodiak, you are about to be born". I loved that. She was born into a beautiful place, no pain, all happiness - if we could only always view "it" that way.

My 2 dogs left, seem depressed - Kodiak was the "life of the party" until the day she died - I miss that so much, she made it so lively around our home. I just keep telling my dogs she is safe, she can walk again (they were very stressed seeing her unable to walk) she simply is home and we will all go see her someday and be together again. I think my 2 dogs "reaction" to this is the saddest of all, very upsetting to see them looking for her and barely eating. It seems so quiet here.

Shannon glad I made you smile.

Peace & prayers, - (hope I didn't miss any one's questions or responses)
Dana