Our "buddy", he passed aeay Oct.15th/08 Options

[deb in grief]

Our dog Buddy passed away on Oct 15th/08. I was his mom. I fed him and took care of him and we became sole mates. I adored him. He was a gorgeous soft coated wheaton with human like eyes and boy oh boy could they communicate to us;especially to me. He got sick suddenly with pancreatitis and then kidney failure and within 40 hrs or so and no improvement we had to let him go. At first I was so brave-he was apparantly in pain so I was glad it was over. There was NO WAY I wanted him to suffer. As soon as it was over, my husband and I could not beleive it. It was surreal. I just cried and cried going thru the feelings that I have heard about. But it is not just the crying that worries me. I am so distraught that I can't imagine how I am going to get thru this. I don't care about anything anymore. I am just going thru the motions of life. He was my baby and now he is gone. I know that I will never be the same person. I lost my sister, my father and my mother which were all so devastating. Losing Buddy if I can be honest is almost worse because he was with me all of the time. I think I loved him too much. So many pet owners treat them as animals. We treated Buddy like a member of the family and maybe I was letting myself in for this big fall. Now I also have this HUGE guilt that maybe I should have done something to make him well again. I would have done anything even mortgaged my house if I could have to have him with us. I just don't know what to do.

[ann]

Hi Deb., I'm so sorry for your loss. We can never love them too much. I know exactly how your feeling. Everything you said applies to me too. Not being the same as I was, going thru the motions of life. They just show us such an unconditional love that's hard to describe to others who haven't experienced it. They are sick or hurt and all we focus on is thier pain. End the pain, we can't bear to see our babies suffering. And then, it's like, this sick feeling waves over you, what have I done? How could I have done it. I always say, it's a head and heart battle. The head knows it was right, but the heart trys desperately to get them back. Buddy was a member of your family and a hugh part of your life. Gone in the physical sense, but always and forever in the mind and heart. LS is great place to be right now. We are all here to help you get thru this. We all understand. Post pictures, stories, or just little notes to Buddy.. Peace, speedy healing, and Hugs.. Ann

[deb in grief]

Hi Deb., I'm so sorry for your loss. We can never love them too much. I know exactly how your feeling. Everything you said applies to me too. Not being the same as I was, going thru the motions of life. They just show us such an unconditional love that's hard to describe to others who haven't experienced it. They are sick or hurt and all we focus on is thier pain. End the pain, we can't bear to see our babies suffering. And then, it's like, this sick feeling waves over you, what have I done? How could I have done it. I always say, it's a head and heart battle. The head knows it was right, but the heart trys desperately to get them back. Buddy was a member of your family and a hugh part of your life. Gone in the physical sense, but always and forever in the mind and heart. LS is great place to be right now. We are all here to help you get thru this. We all understand. Post pictures, stories, or just little notes to Buddy.. Peace, speedy healing, and Hugs.. Ann