My Dakota, My boy is gone. Options

[4theluvofdgs]

My dogs name was Dakota and he was a 10 year old Belgain Malinios. He was a huge presence in my family's life. We unexpectedly had to put Dakota to sleep yesterday morning due to Autoimmune Hymoletic Anemia and some other problems.He also had degenerative myelopothy and could not stand anymore. He had sugery to remove his spleen 2 weeks ago and was on many medicaitons. His anemia seemed to be getting better and we thought he was on the mend. Little did we know that he would take a horrible turn for the worse and no other medications would work.

We layed next to him as he died and was put out of his misery. It was the hardest thing Ive ever had to do. My family is heartbroken and we are in so much emotional pain. We are missing a part of our family. Ive only been morning his loss for since yesterday morning and people are already telling me that I need to get on with things. I just cant. I miss him so much and feel such desperation. I want to somehow go and get in the car and bring him back. Im angry and just want my boy back. I want to hold him and smell his fur and hold his face in my hands and I cant. This pain is unbearable and so much worse than I ever thought it would be.

Please someone tell me that it gets easier.

[DJ - Edgar, Jess...]

I am not Christian, but I know a great deal about the faith. I have never been able to understand how one can believe in a compassionate, loving, sensitive God - and have ANY doubt about whether or not our pets are in heaven.

I hope there IS some sort of afterlife - but I'd rather wander the emptiness for eternity than find out my babies weren't going to join me in whatever "afterlife" we have.

So - I suppose - the only thing we CAN do is have some sort of faith. The faith that says the nobility and pureness of spirit aren't HUMAN traits - they are angelic traits - and THAT is what will determine where we are after this lifetime ends. Regardless of whether or not we're human.