New Here, mouning the loss of my shadow Options

[shadowgirl]

I just wanted to intrduce myself. My name is Julia and on October 11th, we had to put our Shadow down. She had breast cancer that spread very quickly. It was only a week from the time we found out, to the time we let her go. Her tumor was bleeding and was large and cut off the circulation to her back right leg causing adema. She was in so much pain and wouldn't eat or drink. She was a border collie-lab mix and was nine years old. She was so loving to our 4 and 3 year old kids. She was our girl. I miss her so much. I miss everything about her. I feel gulity. The could've, should've, would'ves are driving me nuts. We had her cremated and should be recieving her ashes this week. Friends think we're crazy for this and for grieving so much.
thanks for listening...

[Candy's Dad]

I just wanted to intrduce myself. My name is Julia and on October 11th, we had to put our Shadow down. She had breast cancer that spread very quickly. It was only a week from the time we found out, to the time we let her go. Her tumor was bleeding and was large and cut off the circulation to her back right leg causing adema. She was in so much pain and wouldn't eat or drink. She was a border collie-lab mix and was nine years old. She was so loving to our 4 and 3 year old kids. She was our girl. I miss her so much. I miss everything about her. I feel gulity. The could've, should've, would'ves are driving me nuts. We had her cremated and should be recieving her ashes this week. Friends think we're crazy for this and for grieving so much.
thanks for listening...

Dear Shadowgirl,

I'm really sorry about your loss. It sounds like it all went very fast. I know only well your pain. I went through something similar with my Candy (she had lymphoma) and know only too well the guilt we can put on ourselves with all the "if I only done this" or "I should have done that" or "why didn't I do something earlier"?. At the end of the end, I think all of us just do the best that we can for our babies and it sounded like you did every you can, and for that you should be proud.

And don't worry about folks who think your nuts for feeling the way you do, I think each of us here have heard something similar. I think it's helpful to have a place like this where all of us who understand the level of pain, love and sacrafice we give to our pets know that they give us so much happiness that when something happens to them, the pain can be overwhelming.

I hope when you feel up to it, you will post some pictures in your Shadow's memory.

God bless and again, I'm deeply sorry.


Candy's Dad

Hal