My Dakota, My boy is gone. Options

[4theluvofdgs]

My dogs name was Dakota and he was a 10 year old Belgain Malinios. He was a huge presence in my family's life. We unexpectedly had to put Dakota to sleep yesterday morning due to Autoimmune Hymoletic Anemia and some other problems.He also had degenerative myelopothy and could not stand anymore. He had sugery to remove his spleen 2 weeks ago and was on many medicaitons. His anemia seemed to be getting better and we thought he was on the mend. Little did we know that he would take a horrible turn for the worse and no other medications would work.

We layed next to him as he died and was put out of his misery. It was the hardest thing Ive ever had to do. My family is heartbroken and we are in so much emotional pain. We are missing a part of our family. Ive only been morning his loss for since yesterday morning and people are already telling me that I need to get on with things. I just cant. I miss him so much and feel such desperation. I want to somehow go and get in the car and bring him back. Im angry and just want my boy back. I want to hold him and smell his fur and hold his face in my hands and I cant. This pain is unbearable and so much worse than I ever thought it would be.

Please someone tell me that it gets easier.

[MAXIESMOMMY]

Hi
I lost my Max suddenly, but I was spared having to make that decision myself. He died from a heart attack while they were looking at a rash he had developed. The raw, emotional stage you feel right now will pass in time. There are still days I cry and I still talk to Max every day. I hug his urn and kiss it. I only say that here because everyone here understands that. You can say and feel and talk about the crazy things you do and NO ONE would ever tell you that it's not normal or you should "get over it". The wonderful people here helped me through what was the most heartbreaking devastation I have ever known. Even people with pets say "I know what you are going through", but if they have never lost one of those pets, they really don't because it is 100 times worse than what you imagine it will be. It will be almost 2 months that I last held and kissed my baby, and I miss him soooo much. But time does help and talking and talking here helps. It takes a while to be able to cope with day to day living without your precious Dakota, but I assure you, you will be able to go on. It just takes time.
My thoughts are with you,
Carol