My Dakota, My boy is gone. Options

[4theluvofdgs]

My dogs name was Dakota and he was a 10 year old Belgain Malinios. He was a huge presence in my family's life. We unexpectedly had to put Dakota to sleep yesterday morning due to Autoimmune Hymoletic Anemia and some other problems.He also had degenerative myelopothy and could not stand anymore. He had sugery to remove his spleen 2 weeks ago and was on many medicaitons. His anemia seemed to be getting better and we thought he was on the mend. Little did we know that he would take a horrible turn for the worse and no other medications would work.

We layed next to him as he died and was put out of his misery. It was the hardest thing Ive ever had to do. My family is heartbroken and we are in so much emotional pain. We are missing a part of our family. Ive only been morning his loss for since yesterday morning and people are already telling me that I need to get on with things. I just cant. I miss him so much and feel such desperation. I want to somehow go and get in the car and bring him back. Im angry and just want my boy back. I want to hold him and smell his fur and hold his face in my hands and I cant. This pain is unbearable and so much worse than I ever thought it would be.

Please someone tell me that it gets easier.

[4theluvofdgs]

Thank you to all of you that have taken the time to write such beautiful words of support and encouragement. I cannot thank you enough. I feel at home here even in my grief and know that you understand just what I am going through. My eyes are so swollen and every time I think Ive cried more that I could ever cry again, I prove myself wrong. Dakota was a incredible boy and I hope you will read my tribute to him that I posted. For some reason I have this urge to tell his story to everyone who will listen. I guess its helping with my pain and making me still feel connected to him. I want the emotional pain to end, but I dont want to every forget the sound of his bark or the feel of his fur. I cannot believe the grief I am feeling for my boy.

Thank you all so much !