6 Weeks On Options

[westiemum]

Only six weeks on, feels like six years.!!!!!


The pain is even more strong, maybe reality has crept in, who knows? I just feel bereft!! I don't look for my bestest friend in the whole world anymore, because I know he has gone, because I felt him leave me, as he was in my arms, but I never imagined the feeling of perhaps insecurity, does that make sense???? You know, when the whole universe is against you, and your best buddy (who thinks you are just perfect, and totally trust and believes in you, and agrees), then in reality, he isn't there anymore, and you just don't know what to do, I am fed up with people telling me that my boy had a good life, no my boy and I had the best life ever, together...... Life without him is just bearable.

I have gone through some tough times and that little man saw me through it, and the person who gave me that precious little soul also was called away too soon!!!! I always said that Scooby was the inspiration that kept me going. I have a son who has a very severe illness, a mother who is nearly 90 years old and I miss my best pal so much, I used to say that whe he went I would lose my sanity, and sometimes I am scared I will. I am finding it hard to see tomorrow without my boy, but I know in my heart that he wantws me to go on, why is it so hard???????

I have to thank everyone who took the time to reply to me, thank you so much

[AngelCareOne]

Hi, Bubba. You too, huh?! Gawd how dreadful! I am so, so, so very, very, very sorry!

Westiemum, Bubba knows how I am better able to describe feelings using images.

To both of you, it's been one year to this very day since I last saw my baby. He was "taken" from me on October 11, 2007. Then on October 13th, 2007 was the last I heard his sweet voice as he talked with me on the phone. Finally, it was October 16, 2007 that ... Well, I found out a whole bunch about what was done to my Buddy dog, Styx kitty (thank God I got to them just in time) and I was informed that Alex is gone. Gone. I do not recall right off hand who I am quoting: "These are the times that try man's souls!"

That's all for now. More Big Hugs!!!!

Always,
Dottie xoxoxox