Okay, I Need Some Advice...., Our Beloved Ernestine.... Options

[Guest_Muffins_*]

Hi Everyone:
Call me crazy/nuts, I don't know.
Last night I was actually looking in the computer at "no-kill" shelters, and looking at pictures of all kinds of "furbabies" that are looking for a home and to be loved.
Of course, before this, Ben & I were talking and (we were both "coherant"; ?spelling).
We, like everyone in here: Love all animals, have had much loved "fur-babies" all of our lives. We've loved, we've lost, but, Oh, how much fuller our hearts are for having loved our babies that have gone over the bridge to forever.

I was Ernestine's mom since she was six weeks old, in 1984; we had to put her and sick & hurting little body, to sleep on Saturday, February 7, 2004 at noon. My heart has tripled in size because of my girl... She loved me no matter what. And, I & Ben, always loved her & we always will. She takes up a huge part of our hearts.

I'm probably going to start rambling, and not sure if this will make sense TO ANYONE.......... Here goes....

I put in an e-mail application at this "no-kill" shelter, and I got an e-mail message, plus a phone call. They needed me to call my vet so they could "get a reference on us". That's fine, and very understandable.
I heard the call as I was waking up, and thought to myself, "Hmmm, what did I do????"
And then I started "name calling" myself in my head...... "You must be a non-caring, heartless, expletive(s), human being...." Of course, last night as Ben & I were talking, I felt happy & calm..
I said, "No disrespect at all to our beloved baby-girl ErnieBird, but, she made my heart so big..... I would really love to adopt a couple (so they can be playmates; I should've done that for my girl at when she was 6 weeks old), of babies, I feel good about it" And, again, "sincerely, there is "NO DISRESPECT" to my little girl Ernestine, at all"...

For, my little girl "lives in my heart", she is with me... She knows that we did all we could (medically) for her and she was so sick. I have every comfort in knowing that she is happy, healthy & running around playing... She's young again, and has no pain....

When I was looking through these shelters, dear God, there are sooooooooo many little ones looking for a home, looking to be loved.... It is very sad to see them all.
The "four" I looked at (two different shelters); Two sisters, "Margo & Rita", and the others were brother & sister (Pebbles & BamBam).

I am not a heartless human being, and neither is Ben.... Did "something" just "come over us" for our 2 hour talk last night, or, was it something else???

We "do not feel the need to have a couple of fur-babies", because really, don't our little ones OWN US????
But, we have a lot of love to give - our hearts are big.... Animal friends are the best; so trusting, non-judgemental, happy just to be petted & feel a little love in their hearts... They love their human family; after all, what's better than a full tummy, to be petted & brushed & to feel a kiss on the top of their head....etc., etc., etc....

We're not bad people at all, so I hope all of you won't think the things I said to myself in my head when that call came in......
We will always, always & forever love our girl Ernestine.... For, she really does live in our hearts and in our heads..
What do you think??? Have I gone crazy, or, is this "normal" for us??

Thank you so much for listening.....
Love, Denise & Ben

[Muffins]

Hi!

I found an old thread of mine, and wanted to bring it back.........

For no reason, other than "if you're looking for a new furkid 'soon after' the passing of your beloved furbabies...."

It was interesting to see "where my head was 6 days after our sweet Ernestine was put to sleep"......
I was still "very much in a rambling faze"......

Ben and I...............No, we didn't adopt "Margo and Rita" or "Pebbles and BamBam"..........

I really think that the last post I wrote on this thread was 2/12/2004.........and, "something happened", and we both found that we really weren't ready.......I know that Ben and I "wanted to take a small, 5 day vacation first - because we have a very hard time leaving our kids in ANYONE'S CARE................."

But, as well, we "weren't as ready as we thought we were, to adopt..........."

But, on 3/6/2004, we did adopt two sweet kitties.............
Ms. Lucy and Mr. Yoster.......... (age 7 & 8, respectively)
They had been terribly abused by some "_______________"....
It has taken them awhile to trust us..........but, thankfully, now..........they do!!!!

I guess this post/thread goes to show that there isn't any "perfect/right time to adopt your next furbaby", if, in fact,
that's what you want to do..................
For us, it was "one month"............

And, by some people's thoughts, that's way too quick........

But, for us...........it was perfect.............

We're a happy family now..........Complete & Full...........
Not sure if we'll ever get to "take that vacation...........unless of course we find a "cat-friendly hotel"....

They do have "dog friendly hotels!!!!!"

And, we shall always & forever remember our sweet Ernestine................

(I know that she led me to Ms. Lucy --- that's for sure...........)
Both Ernie-Bird and Ms. Lucy -- they're DSH tortoiseshell calicos.....

Just want to show that "there's a right time for all of us...................." to adopt a new, sweet, baby (or babies....)
If we want to...........

Love, Denise, Ben, Ms. Lucy and Mr. Yoster