Missing Elliott In A Big Way Today, I can't stop crying..... Options

[Mikki]

I see him everywhere. I keep praying please god, send him back I can't take this. I keep looking out the window where we buried him. We have another cat, 2 dogs and 2 birds and yet the house feels EMPTY. Why is that? Because he was everywhere and into everything. We yelled at him constantly and yet he was also tremendously affectionate. Crawled into bed with me every night. I can't stop crying. I have this permanent heavy feeling on my chest and I keep thinking it might have been okay to keep him alive for a bit longer, maybe we could have enjoyed him for a couple more weeks.....I am really missing his fine chiseled features and his enormous owlish eyes and his stiff prickly whiskers. I miss my Elliott and I keep crying and the dogs just stare at me. Our 'family' does not feel the same anymore. Grief is so horrible, it's just the most gut-wrenching thing and I can't imagine that our home will ever feel as normal and joyous as it used to......I dont' know what to 'do' to pull myself out of this more quickly, I am so, so SAD. This HOUSE does not feel RIGHT without him! I miss him coming up and snuggling under my left arm while I'm sitting on the couch (always the left arm for some reason....he never wanted to curl up under the right arm). I hate this......every single room is a reminder that he no longer exists. He doens't exist and that causes me so much pain. I miss my cats, all my darling, sweet and unique boys: Elliott, Jet and Arliss. Death is a hateful thing and I am really finding it difficult to see the sense in it all. There is an enormous gaping hole in my house. I so want to know that he is okay and knows how much we cherished him. I can't stop crying! WHERE is he? I just want to feel him near me, but I am not getting anything but this big hole. Just a big gaping, aching HOLE.......

[Nemo's Mommy]

Mikki- how are you doing today?

I was reading all these posts, and it is just so good to know that there are so many people out there that share the same love for cats/dogs as we do. My husband loves our pets, but I don't think he understands the extent to which I LOVE the pets. It's been 4 weeks today since my precious Ren kitty died, and it feels like a few days. I still remember the feeling of his body going from warm, to colder, to colder, to cold after he passed. Ren was a sphynx kitty so he was hairless. It's just every kind of emotion. I'll never forget that, his little body laying there becoming cold....... UGH that just makes me want to cry and cry.

I hate the thought of living the rest of my life without "seeing" him again. Why? Why does it have to be that way? I just don't know. I wish wish wish my poor kitty could have lived longer than 8 years. But, I have to be thankful for the 8 years he did have. I just still can't believe he is gone. Today is hard day.

Take Care,
Ren (4 weeks Rainbow Bridge), Zorro (2 1/2 months Rainbow Bridge), and Nemo(3 years Rainbow Bridge) Mom

[Mikki]

Mikki- how are you doing today?

I was reading all these posts, and it is just so good to know that there are so many people out there that share the same love for cats/dogs as we do. My husband loves our pets, but I don't think he understands the extent to which I LOVE the pets. It's been 4 weeks today since my precious Ren kitty died, and it feels like a few days. I still remember the feeling of his body going from warm, to colder, to colder, to cold after he passed. Ren was a sphynx kitty so he was hairless. It's just every kind of emotion. I'll never forget that, his little body laying there becoming cold....... UGH that just makes me want to cry and cry.

I hate the thought of living the rest of my life without "seeing" him again. Why? Why does it have to be that way? I just don't know. I wish wish wish my poor kitty could have lived longer than 8 years. But, I have to be thankful for the 8 years he did have. I just still can't believe he is gone. Today is hard day.

Take Care,
Ren (4 weeks Rainbow Bridge), Zorro (2 1/2 months Rainbow Bridge), and Nemo(3 years Rainbow Bridge) Mom

Hi Nemo's Mom,
I''m sad to hear you are having a bad day today; I know that those painful feelings can creep up when least expected.....I had a little bit better day today.....sort-of.....I find that if I am distracted to some degree then I am okay.....coming home from work was a bit rough though. I walk past his grave---he and Jet are buried right next to each other next to the gate. I did that on purpose, I wanted to 'see' them every day when I left the house. I wish I could plant flowers on their graves but it will have to wait until Spring......your story made me think about holding Elliott's body while John dug a grave for him. He was still warm, but so very, very limp.....so unlike his usual wired self. That part was tough. I do miss him so much, I can't image it will ever go away, but I know from my experience with Jet that it becomes less devastating over time. Our home just doesn't feel whole without him.....do you have any other animals? Holding my other boys (tabby cat, Otis and my 2 dogs, Speck and Fletcher), can help relieve the pain. going to bed at night is the absolute worst, that's when I miss him the most...
Mikki