Missing Elliott In A Big Way Today, I can't stop crying..... Options

[Mikki]

I see him everywhere. I keep praying please god, send him back I can't take this. I keep looking out the window where we buried him. We have another cat, 2 dogs and 2 birds and yet the house feels EMPTY. Why is that? Because he was everywhere and into everything. We yelled at him constantly and yet he was also tremendously affectionate. Crawled into bed with me every night. I can't stop crying. I have this permanent heavy feeling on my chest and I keep thinking it might have been okay to keep him alive for a bit longer, maybe we could have enjoyed him for a couple more weeks.....I am really missing his fine chiseled features and his enormous owlish eyes and his stiff prickly whiskers. I miss my Elliott and I keep crying and the dogs just stare at me. Our 'family' does not feel the same anymore. Grief is so horrible, it's just the most gut-wrenching thing and I can't imagine that our home will ever feel as normal and joyous as it used to......I dont' know what to 'do' to pull myself out of this more quickly, I am so, so SAD. This HOUSE does not feel RIGHT without him! I miss him coming up and snuggling under my left arm while I'm sitting on the couch (always the left arm for some reason....he never wanted to curl up under the right arm). I hate this......every single room is a reminder that he no longer exists. He doens't exist and that causes me so much pain. I miss my cats, all my darling, sweet and unique boys: Elliott, Jet and Arliss. Death is a hateful thing and I am really finding it difficult to see the sense in it all. There is an enormous gaping hole in my house. I so want to know that he is okay and knows how much we cherished him. I can't stop crying! WHERE is he? I just want to feel him near me, but I am not getting anything but this big hole. Just a big gaping, aching HOLE.......

[Miss my Simba]

Dear Mikki, what you are going through is completely normal! It feels like you did something wrong and no matter how you try, you can't fix it. Let the tears flow for as long as it takes, as they are healing tears.
We have all gone though it a few times and sadly to say, time is the best healer. The only thing that really helps is the tears you cry, and remembering the beautiful memories you shared. There is no time limit, as we each have our own and deal with it our own way. For some of us getting a new pet helps, but don't do that until you are ready. We lost our beloved Simba to heart trouble when he was only 5 and it broke our hearts. We missed him so badly, that we went to the SPCA, and after a couple of visits, looked into the eyes of a beautiful kitten and knew how much he needed us. It was hard in the beginning, as we felt guilty, but with a lot of help from the wonderful people on this site, I can't imagine life without him. My father says God sent us these wonderful creatures on loan to love and enjoy till their time here is finished. I know how much it hurts, but please take comfort in the time you had with him and the precious memories. Bless you.

Deb

[Mikki]

Dear Mikki, what you are going through is completely normal! It feels like you did something wrong and no matter how you try, you can't fix it. Let the tears flow for as long as it takes, as they are healing tears.
We have all gone though it a few times and sadly to say, time is the best healer. The only thing that really helps is the tears you cry, and remembering the beautiful memories you shared. There is no time limit, as we each have our own and deal with it our own way. For some of us getting a new pet helps, but don't do that until you are ready. We lost our beloved Simba to heart trouble when he was only 5 and it broke our hearts. We missed him so badly, that we went to the SPCA, and after a couple of visits, looked into the eyes of a beautiful kitten and knew how much he needed us. It was hard in the beginning, as we felt guilty, but with a lot of help from the wonderful people on this site, I can't imagine life without him. My father says God sent us these wonderful creatures on loan to love and enjoy till their time here is finished. I know how much it hurts, but please take comfort in the time you had with him and the precious memories. Bless you.

Deb

OMG Deb I love what your Dad told you: God sent us these wonderful creatures on loan to love and enjoy till their time here is finished.......that is so beautiful. And I am so glad to hear that you got another kitty. I like to think that my pets move on because they know (ahead of our knowing) that there is another animal that is in dire need of our home......so I will trust that I'll know when the time is right. Thank you for your support!
Mikki