Losing My Dog In A Few Weeks, Degenerative Neuropathy - She'll be euthanized soon Options

[Gizmo]

I ran across this website after searching for some help and I am amazed by the compassion and support that everyone so freely gives to each other. Thank you for that. It is very nice to see such supportive and kind people.

My wife and I are losing our beautiful girl, Gizmo, in a few weeks. She is in no pain but she has terrible neuropathy that gets worse by the day. She can’t really move around on her own at all and we know that her time is here.

We are keeping her here for a few weeks – my wife is home all day and she can take care of Gizmo during the day. Since she isn’t in pain and still seems happy (and still has an incredible appetite) we don’t want to lose her too early. We’re also clinging to the unrealistic hope that continued acupuncture treatments might finally start to show some benefit. Unfortunately, though, my wife will have to return to work soon and we won’t be able to be there for Gizmo, so we’ll have to say goodbye.

I am terrified. I see the unbelievable strength of each one of you – you all are strong enough to do the right thing for your pets and you’re strong enough to lower your heads and fight through it, and I honestly don’t think I can do it. I am so disappointed in how I’m handling this. I think I’m making it worse for my wife, not better, because I am absolutely falling apart at the seams. I have moments where I can deal with this, but most of the time I am an absolute mess. I feel pathetic – I am not strong for Gizmo or my wife and, as such, I know I’m making this whole process more difficult on both of them. It just adds to the overwhelmingly terrible feeling of this whole ordeal.

Please let me know if you have any suggestions for helping me accept what is going on. I need to be strong for both of them. I know I’m being challenged right now and it’s terrible to know that I’m failing that challenge.

Also, please say a prayer for Gizmo if you’re so inclined.. I love her more than I could ever express.

[Gizmo]

You people are all so amazing. Thank you so much.

I'm leaving work right now to spend my last 25 hours with her (until we see each other again on the other side). I spent all last night crying, vomiting and dry-heaving from anxiety, and I'm sure there's more of that to come. I'd be stunned if she isn't in either mine or my wife's arms for the entirety of that time.

Then the doctor will come. Then she'll be gone. Then we'll have to drive her to the crematorium. Dear God, how is anyone strong enough to do that?

Once again, thanks so much to all of you. I know you've been through what I'm going through and you are such wonderful people to take the time to help. Please accept my prayers and condolences for your losses.

I probably won't check in for a while. Please know that I will always be grateful to each one of you, and I truly feel terrible for the pains of your lost loved ones.