My Chihuahua Marilyn, I miss her so much Options

[meens]

Hello there

I hope no one minds me posting, I am from the UK so I don't know what time this will reach people in the States. I have read all the posts on here since last Monday, when I had to put my baby girl to sleep. I have cried along with you and have only just got the courage to post something myself. Putting her to sleep was the hardest thing I have had to do in my life, and I have been through some tough times. I can't stop crying and I feel so alone. Marilyn was one of two sister chis that I have had since they were weeks old. She was 15, would have been 16 on 1 October. She was beautiful, the sweetest and most caring little dog. She was with me through relationship break ups, several house moves because of them and horrible neighbours. In 2005 I lost two babies, in January and July. Marilyn would lie on my tummy when I was pregnant, kissed my tears away when I was sad and was always, always there. Never judging, never saying cruel stuff like so many men have done and not minding when I cried and cried over losing my babies. When I was pregnant she wouldn't let me take a bath alone, she would scratch at the door til I let her in so she could check I was OK. I had to have baths with the door open from then on...

I have spent most of the last 15 years alone, a succession of rubbish relationships meant it was just me and my two girlies. I am sorry for going on and on, I don't even know if this makes sense but i am sobbing so much I can't see properly. Life feels empty, I still have her sister Chi Chi and a rescue dog called Betty but the balance in the house is wrong. Two bowls instead of three, one less dog bed, I am sure you know what I mean. My partner has been really good but I feel I am being such a burden to him. He doesn't really understand and only knew her for just over a year, though he did love her. I am in such a mess, I feel dead inside and my heart is broken. Thank you for reading this, just typing it helps. Any advice as to what to do to stop the pain, or when it gets better would be so appreciated. Thank you for taking the time to read this everyone and I am sorry for your losses too. Hal, I read all your posts and was in bits, you wrote so beautifully and I could totally relate to what you went through. Thank you once again - meens xx

[meens]

Dear all

As I lay in bed last night I felt something - a soft ripple next to my leg, a presence. I actually felt the mattress dip down. Marilyn loved to stretch out next to my leg, all cooched up tight with her head on her front paws. I believe it was her offering me comfort at a time when I needed it most, just she always did.

This time exactly a week ago we were in the vets, for the last time... It hurts just as much, perhaps even more. I know everyone is hurting too, but please spare a thought and a prayer for me and my little angel. I don't know how I got through the last week but I know I wouldn't have if it wasn't for everyone on here.

Thank you for being there

meens x

[goliath]

As I lay in bed last night I felt something - a soft ripple next to my leg, a presence. I actually felt the mattress dip down. Marilyn loved to stretch out next to my leg, all cooched up tight with her head on her front paws. I believe it was her offering me comfort at a time when I needed it most, just she always did.

How wonderful for you to have experienced Marilyn's presence. Her visit just may be telling you to be well and that she is just fine where she is. Marilyn loved you just as much as you loved her and both of you will continue sharing that love throughout the rest of your days on earth until you and she meet once again in a place that is endless; never to be separated again.

Marilyn is by your side today just as she always was. Her loving spirit will watch over you and keep you safe. The bond the two of you share cannot be broken.......even in death. She soars high above with all God's angels so she is not alone.

May you be comforted with love and peace during these difficult times.

Hugs,
Beth