I Loved My Sissy Cat Options

[sissycat]

I am so glad I found this site. I have cried and cried over the loss of my best friend---Sissy Cat.
I had her for 2 years and 5 days. Her mother was a stray and she had a litter of 3 kittens all girls. Well I had to keep all 4 of them. All were fixed. So have had her family a while. But this one became my really good friend. How long does it take for the pain to go away. Right now it doesn't seem like it ever will. It has only been a few days. (June 5, 2008)
It doesn't help that I partially blame myself for her death. I usually let all the cats outside for a bit at 6 a.m. and let them back in before going to work. This perticular morning my husband herd a cat meowing and thought I had left one outside. I got up to look and it was a stray at my window. It was 4 a.m. and of course they thought it was time to go outside. I let them out early and they were outside for a longer time. I went out to find my precious Sissy had been hit by a car. She had made it back to my driveway and one of the other cats was setting by her side. I was devastated. All kinds of what ifs and whys and could haves and should haves still run through my head.
I miss her terribly!!!!!! She had slept in my bed everynight for almost two years. She would meow at the food bowl even if there was food in it. All she wanted was a few fresh peices droped on top and she would eat. She would only drink out of a cup on the bathroom sink. She would lick my hand when we went to bed at night to let me know she cared. She would be in my lap when it stormed because she was scared.
Maybe I get too attached to my pets. Sissy especially. I loved her so Much!!!!!! I have made pictures of her to put on my computer desk and home and at my work.
I catch myself talking to her at her grave side and sometimes when I look at her pictures. Am I crazy? Does anyone else do these things. I even went and brushed up her fur off the end of my bed and put it in a baggy. I planted purple mums on her grave today and placed a little cross with her name on it there.
I still have 4 cats, but we are not close like me and Sissy were. I am heart broken how do I heal. Will my crying ever stop? I just don't know how i will ever be right again. I can't eat very much cause my stomache stays in knots and I am not sleeping very well. Thank You for listening to my story of Sissy Cat..
SISSY I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[sissycat]

Just saying hello to my precious Sissycat this evening. Day after tomorrow will be 2 months.
I hope you are watching after Lilly. She joined you guys Thursday night. I know you didn't much like dogs but she is just a pup.
Sissy I just miss you so much. Yesterday I looked at the spot where you used to lay. The fur still there. I imagined what is was like with you laying there and stroking your soft fur. Love you my Sissycat!!!!

Lilly is my sons pup. He had her about 3 weeks. Thursday night he took her out to the bathroom she ran barely into the road and a dually pickups back wheel just clipped her and spun her. Too much damage she couldn't be saved. He has taken it very well. He is lonely now I bet. He lives alone about a mile from me.

[ann]

Just saying hello to my precious Sissycat this evening. Day after tomorrow will be 2 months.
I hope you are watching after Lilly. She joined you guys Thursday night. I know you didn't much like dogs but she is just a pup.
Sissy I just miss you so much. Yesterday I looked at the spot where you used to lay. The fur still there. I imagined what is was like with you laying there and stroking your soft fur. Love you my Sissycat!!!!

Lilly is my sons pup. He had her about 3 weeks. Thursday night he took her out to the bathroom she ran barely into the road and a dually pickups back wheel just clipped her and spun her. Too much damage she couldn't be saved. He has taken it very well. He is lonely now I bet. He lives alone about a mile from me.

I am so sorry to hear about Lilly. I'm sure Sissycat is showing her all the fun places over the Rainbow Bridge. Today is my 2 mo mark too of the loss of Arthur. I still can't believe I'm here and all this has happened. I gave back 3 weeks of my summer vacation, cuz most of it was just to spend time with him. It is still a struggle to go to my boyfriend's where he lived. I see him in every space of that house. I read you 1st forum. I went overboard in his death as I did in his life. I drove 1 1/2 hrs one way to pick up his ashes, cuz I didn't want him "shipped" in any way. Fex ex, ups, usps. NO..Trust me I work at a Post Office and if something is marked "fragile" no one cares. We have most of his ashes in a memory box with some of his toys. A phot album next to it. The rainbow bridge poem on top of it. We also put a fence around his catnip I grew along with a cross, a solar light, and a heart shaped sltate with his name, date and photo of him eating his catnip on it. A little of his ashes were buried there in a crystal glass box, a photo, some fur, some toys, and some catnip. So as I see it you can never do too much. I also have a little of his ashes with photos at my house. And I was thinking about getting a piece of urn jewlery to wear with a little of his ashes in it. He loved being outside and with us and I needed to cover every aspect of that. And when I saw that cat the day after I asked for a sign, well I knew he heard me and all my efforts did not go unnoticed. That was a gift from him I will treasure a liifetime. As for dreams. They will come. Be patient. I've only had 1 that I can remember. I know how much you miss your Sissycat. She was very much loved..She is still with you.. Good luck in your search for another companion.. You'll know when you find the right one. Sissycat will let you know.. Hugs and thoughts are with you.. Ann