My Heart Is Aching For All Of You, And For Myself, Losing all of my loves Options

[mosmommy]

I guess most of you have not heard from me before, and the rest of you haven't seen any posts from me in a long while.
I haven't felt like sharing any thoughts or pain lately.

On May 21, 2008- I lost my mouse Gordon. The only comfort was that he was not just my furkid, but he was a huge part of the nature program that I worked on last summer, and for over 9 weeks last summer, he touched hundreds of children. He was their favorite animal in the room. ( We also had a snake, a small lizard, 2 toads, 2 crayfish, a red-eared slider turtle, a rabbit, and a few local fish). All were used for educational and compassionate teachings, and all were released back into the wild with the exception of the lizard and rabbit who were adopted, and the turtle and Gordon. I know Gordon served a great purpose, and he also visited a local elementary science club that I did some volunteer presentations for in the fall of '07. The children loved him as much as I did. Mice can have short life spans, but he accomplished a lot in his.

I lost my beloved 15 1/2 year old cat, Rufus on March 1, 2008, and that has been very painful. I raised him form a kitten, and he slept with me all of the time, even during short "cat" naps. I still find it hard to wake up and not have him here.

Now a quick bit of background, I have lost 23 furry children, 8 close humans, and a few acquaintances- all since May 2004.
I am not sure how I still get up everyday, but I keep on trying.

I am so sorry for those of you with recent and painful loss(es) to handle, I do know how hard it is. I honestly cannot say that it gets easier, but the memories do get better.

Thank you to any and all who read this topic.

Peace, Love, and Prayers,
Michelle

This is my Rufus...

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[mosmommy]

Oh, THERE they are!!! wub.gif It's been too long since I've seen them! How ARE those dear boys? Those cushy-comfy pics make me want to just jump right in there with them and SNOOOOOZE the whole day away! biggrin.gif And what chocolatey-delicious-looking pawpads Wilson has! YUM! happy.gif Ripe for kissing!

I think if you look, you may see me in the back of one of those pictures, and I have my blanket over my head, but I was there, cuddling with them.
Those chocolate paws on my Wilson are so kissable, and I do it many times a day. He's a real beauty!
We all love the afghan that my Mother-in-Law made for me, but I share it (and have shared it) with all of my loves. My Ewan just loves to put his long "fingers" into it and start "marching" before he lays down, he's a very sweet boy.

There should be a shot of my Rufus laying with Wilson (and possibly Huey, our shelter kitty that passed on last February from genetic liver failure). Rufus was always sweet to an new souls that came into the house.

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