My Heart Is Aching For All Of You, And For Myself, Losing all of my loves Options

[mosmommy]

I guess most of you have not heard from me before, and the rest of you haven't seen any posts from me in a long while.
I haven't felt like sharing any thoughts or pain lately.

On May 21, 2008- I lost my mouse Gordon. The only comfort was that he was not just my furkid, but he was a huge part of the nature program that I worked on last summer, and for over 9 weeks last summer, he touched hundreds of children. He was their favorite animal in the room. ( We also had a snake, a small lizard, 2 toads, 2 crayfish, a red-eared slider turtle, a rabbit, and a few local fish). All were used for educational and compassionate teachings, and all were released back into the wild with the exception of the lizard and rabbit who were adopted, and the turtle and Gordon. I know Gordon served a great purpose, and he also visited a local elementary science club that I did some volunteer presentations for in the fall of '07. The children loved him as much as I did. Mice can have short life spans, but he accomplished a lot in his.

I lost my beloved 15 1/2 year old cat, Rufus on March 1, 2008, and that has been very painful. I raised him form a kitten, and he slept with me all of the time, even during short "cat" naps. I still find it hard to wake up and not have him here.

Now a quick bit of background, I have lost 23 furry children, 8 close humans, and a few acquaintances- all since May 2004.
I am not sure how I still get up everyday, but I keep on trying.

I am so sorry for those of you with recent and painful loss(es) to handle, I do know how hard it is. I honestly cannot say that it gets easier, but the memories do get better.

Thank you to any and all who read this topic.

Peace, Love, and Prayers,
Michelle

This is my Rufus...

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[mosmommy]

Hi,
Sorry I haven't been here to reply for a few days. Thank you for your compliments about my Gordon, Chance, and Rufus.

Chance was a VERY special creature. That first Christmas eve, he didn't get up at night to run like he usually would, I guess he knew to stay asleep for Santa to come.
He got his snowman stuffed critter, which he eventually tore all of the stuffing out, and slept in it. Very cute! He got a mini stocking filled with a cheese/seed cake, and after he got it out of that stocking, he got to keep the stocking to use as bedding for his large "nest". He also got wrapping paper filled with mixed nuts, even the expensive kind, and I put that gift (paper and all) in his cage for him to open. I didn't use tape or ribbon, so he just had to chew through some paper to get his gift. He had a lovely Christmas Day that year, and the years that followed while he was with us.

Although I am relieved to have this thread back to it's original purpose, it may behoove me to have that stuff added back in. The only reason is so people who read it (now or in the future) could see and understand what happened, what reactions it caused, and maybe learn when and where to post certain things. Not sure though.

To Sabin and Nissa's Mom, it is great to hear from you again, all be it under these cir%%stances. I thank you so much for your support and encouragement.
It has been a tough 4 years, and I, too, have suffered losses other than those in death. I do not know how I get up every day, and at times, I think I've gone numb.
I have other babies to be here for, and I am sure my life will have more babies coming my way until it is my time to leave this Earth.

I will put up a couple pics of my adorable 2 cats that are here with me. I always have stated that 2 are never enough, but when the time is right, that number will increase.

I have to keep going for these guys, as they have rescued me from some of my grief.
Peace, Love, and Prayers to you all,
Michelle

My brown Wilson, and my Agouti, Ewan (You-in).

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