My Heart Is Aching For All Of You, And For Myself, Losing all of my loves Options

[mosmommy]

I guess most of you have not heard from me before, and the rest of you haven't seen any posts from me in a long while.
I haven't felt like sharing any thoughts or pain lately.

On May 21, 2008- I lost my mouse Gordon. The only comfort was that he was not just my furkid, but he was a huge part of the nature program that I worked on last summer, and for over 9 weeks last summer, he touched hundreds of children. He was their favorite animal in the room. ( We also had a snake, a small lizard, 2 toads, 2 crayfish, a red-eared slider turtle, a rabbit, and a few local fish). All were used for educational and compassionate teachings, and all were released back into the wild with the exception of the lizard and rabbit who were adopted, and the turtle and Gordon. I know Gordon served a great purpose, and he also visited a local elementary science club that I did some volunteer presentations for in the fall of '07. The children loved him as much as I did. Mice can have short life spans, but he accomplished a lot in his.

I lost my beloved 15 1/2 year old cat, Rufus on March 1, 2008, and that has been very painful. I raised him form a kitten, and he slept with me all of the time, even during short "cat" naps. I still find it hard to wake up and not have him here.

Now a quick bit of background, I have lost 23 furry children, 8 close humans, and a few acquaintances- all since May 2004.
I am not sure how I still get up everyday, but I keep on trying.

I am so sorry for those of you with recent and painful loss(es) to handle, I do know how hard it is. I honestly cannot say that it gets easier, but the memories do get better.

Thank you to any and all who read this topic.

Peace, Love, and Prayers,
Michelle

This is my Rufus...

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[valgib]

Wow. I will never offer Duncan my support or compassion. I don't care if you have a dog, cat or a mouse for a pet: I don't care if you live on the farm on a highrise in New York City, the whole point is he completely disrespected the feelings of Mos Mommy. the whole and entire reason we come to this site is for support with our grief feelings, to share and empathize with each other. To so lightly talk about "blowing their heads off" to people who are paralyzed by losing an animal, I find that completely unacceptable. I think Duncan should find another site where he can enjoy talking about killing.

[havana]

Wow. I will never offer Duncan my support or compassion. I don't care if you have a dog, cat or a mouse for a pet: I don't care if you live on the farm on a highrise in New York City, the whole point is he completely disrespected the feelings of Mos Mommy. the whole and entire reason we come to this site is for support with our grief feelings, to share and empathize with each other. To so lightly talk about "blowing their heads off" to people who are paralyzed by losing an animal, I find that completely unacceptable. I think Duncan should find another site where he can enjoy talking about killing.

And I agree with you valgib, I am in state of shock, I can not believe he is talking about killing Baby Pets here, I will not care about "Duncan" anymore, ever, he dosen't belong here and I am very sorry for "his" Pets also, what a shame and very sorry about it.