My Heart Is Aching For All Of You, And For Myself, Losing all of my loves Options

[mosmommy]

I guess most of you have not heard from me before, and the rest of you haven't seen any posts from me in a long while.
I haven't felt like sharing any thoughts or pain lately.

On May 21, 2008- I lost my mouse Gordon. The only comfort was that he was not just my furkid, but he was a huge part of the nature program that I worked on last summer, and for over 9 weeks last summer, he touched hundreds of children. He was their favorite animal in the room. ( We also had a snake, a small lizard, 2 toads, 2 crayfish, a red-eared slider turtle, a rabbit, and a few local fish). All were used for educational and compassionate teachings, and all were released back into the wild with the exception of the lizard and rabbit who were adopted, and the turtle and Gordon. I know Gordon served a great purpose, and he also visited a local elementary science club that I did some volunteer presentations for in the fall of '07. The children loved him as much as I did. Mice can have short life spans, but he accomplished a lot in his.

I lost my beloved 15 1/2 year old cat, Rufus on March 1, 2008, and that has been very painful. I raised him form a kitten, and he slept with me all of the time, even during short "cat" naps. I still find it hard to wake up and not have him here.

Now a quick bit of background, I have lost 23 furry children, 8 close humans, and a few acquaintances- all since May 2004.
I am not sure how I still get up everyday, but I keep on trying.

I am so sorry for those of you with recent and painful loss(es) to handle, I do know how hard it is. I honestly cannot say that it gets easier, but the memories do get better.

Thank you to any and all who read this topic.

Peace, Love, and Prayers,
Michelle

This is my Rufus...

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[Duncan-MyBuddy]

Good Evening Michelle!
Yes there's a lot of pain, sorrow, grieving and at the same time compassionate talk here. As LoveThem said keep posting any time you want to talk or just listen. I think there's some truth to 'misery loves company'!

I lost my beloved 15 1/2 year old cat, Rufus on March 1, 2008, and that has been very painful. I raised him form a kitten, and he slept with me all of the time, even during short "cat" naps. I still find it hard to wake up and not have him here......I have lost 23 furry children, 8 close humans, and a few acquaintances- all since May 2004. I am not sure how I still get up everyday, but I keep on trying.

I can relate to that somewhat. My entire immediate blood family is gone now, i'm what you might say the 'Last of the Mohicans'. And i lost my best friend Duncan a few weeks ago.
Having said that, i still very much look forward to the sun rising every morning and dealing with life's trials and tribulations. You might say i'm 'born again' every morning i wake up. To me life is a precious gift, the past, the here, the now and the future should all be celebrated as such.
The trajedies, the loss of our humans and furry pets, etc. is all but a part of life and in the Grand Scheme of things we'll be ultimately judged on how we cope with and handle these events.

Our pets as i see it are not here to provide life long grief or to negatively alter our life after they pass. They are here as a temporary gift to provide us positive 'stepping stones' to build our own character necessary for life's fullfillment. IMO, to prolongingly grieve over a death whether human or fur is counter productive to our own well being as hard as that might sometimes be to accept. But eventually, accept we must and then move on!

Take care Michelle,
-Ken