Death Of My Furry Baby Boy Chihuahua, Please help me with my loss of Goliath Options

[goliath]

My baby boy Goliath, a chihuahua, passed away 2 months ago and I am suffering an emptiness that is unbearable most of the time. Is there anybody out there who can help me through this pain? He was the light of my life and the best friend I ever had.

[goliath]

We cannot bring these special ones back physically but what we have learned from them and because of them can be used to lighten another's burden. We may not always find the right words to do that but if we are lucky, there are times we do find them, and to lighten the overwhelming grief of just one "Mom" and/or "Dad" makes taking the time all worthwhile

Thanks Judy. You caught the message I was trying to send loud and clear. The reason I pulled Goliath's original thread up again was a result of your having said to me, "Beth, have you ever looked back to see how far you have come since you first came to this support group?" I said I hadn't because I could remember so well how I felt back then. But then it occured to me that others here who are new and are looking for hope for recovery may not have known how far I have come.

Many times when I come here I find people who feel hopeless and lost. So, I thought I might be able to bring some of them some hope and encouragement to go on. Given time we can all come to terms with our deep losses and sadness. There IS hope for all who come here. I found hope and inspiration here by many people. Also, because you were the beautiful person who first responded to my cry for help, I was found. You gave me the encouragement I needed to find a happier and satisfying way of life. I will always love you and be grateful to you for what you so unselfishly gave me.

No longer do I walk around aimlessly in a state of despair and hopelessness. My days are filled with gratitude and appreciation for all I have had. As long I allow myself to continue to grow, I can pass around the love in my heart. Hopefully, someone reading my words will catch the true message of hope I am sending. Goliath IS the sunshine in my heart and will forever remain the most cherished blessing in my life.

May the peace also be with you Judy as well as everyone else here in this forum.

[goliath]

As I sit here tonight after being away from the forum for a few days, I am catching up on the postings I have missed. So much sadness.....so much grief. Each of you tug at my heart and I cannot hold back beacuse of how much I care about all of you.

Little by little I have become able to spend less time here. The first day away from here was the hardest because I feel so connected to everybody here. But, I am also very much in tune with the rest of the world that revolves around me. So, if you don't see me as often, please don't ever think that I have stopped caring or ever could. I am bound to you always.

It was 8 months ago today that my Goliath left this world. Because I was so blessed to have him in my life and cherish each and every one of the memories he and I made together, most of my days are filled with taking the beauty of the rest of the world in through all my senses. Today, I spent the entire day in comeplete bliss working in my gardens and enjoying the sun that shined on me and also the sunshine within me. There is so much for me to love in this world. On this day I chose to rejoice in Goliath's memories and practice the lessons of love and goodness he so unselfishly taught me.

Because of Goliath the grass is greener, the birds sing sweeter, and the skies are bluer. All of natures wondrous beauty has more meaning to me than it ever did before. I have learned to take time to smell the flowers, spend more quality time with my family, and to be thankful for all I have. It took me alot of time and reflection as well as tears to get me where I'm at today. Goliath is such a solid part of me and I always feel him with me no matter where I go or what I do.

Summertime is when our family is the most active. Last summer we played on our boat, took long walks, went camping, and spent lazy hot days laying in cool places. No matter what we did.........we did it together. When winter ended and spring arrived I became somewhat apprehensive about the summer months that were rapidly approaching. All the "firsts" came up fast and at first I had to force myself into that first walk, that first boat ride, that first camping trip..............

I have always known Goliath would stay with me forever from the day we met. Because of him the word appreciation means so much more to me. His music and love is very much alive all around me and within me. My soul is nourished daily through his unforgetable memories and I am not saddened as I smile and say "Thanks Goliath for all you gave to me." I will love you til the day after forever.

Much love with heartfelt thanks to each and every one of you. May you find peace and tranqulity as you struggle to find a way to let your furry kid's sunshine in.

Comforting hugs filled with love to all,
Beth