No Chance To Say Goodbye Options

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my cat Funky died at the vet yesterday while coming out of anathesia from a very routine procedure, he was just over a year old. i didnt want to take him to the vet, but his inner ear had been infected for a while (a polyp, we were to find out yesterday) and the therapy needed to be done. knowing this was a common procedure, i didnt think much about it. when i heard the vet (my ex-wife) crying on the other end, my first thoughts were that one of my kids was in trouble. then she said the words no owner wants to hear: your pet died.

i lost it pretty hard yesterday, who says men dont cry? i did for hours in bed while listening to the rain and thunder outside. he was a sturdy cat, healthy in every other way besides that damn ear. he and i had a good play session the night prior to the procedure, but in the morning i unceremoniously picked him up and stuffed him into the carrier for his final ride. if i would have known i would not see him again, i would have squeezed him til he squeaked. but that was not the case, and i didnt have a chance to say goodbye. thats what hurts the most.

i finally dragged myself out of bed to half eat some dinner. then turned on the tv to block out the sadness when, wouldnt you know, the national ASPCA commercial with sara mclaughlin singing 'in the arms of an angel' came on. well dear friend, i lost it again.

today, i am cried out. the shock has subsided but the pain still remains. i would love to stay in bed with the covers pulled over my head again today, but work and the world has different plans for me. the house already feels empty, tho the kitty was small he was part of my every day routines. i missed him chasing me down the stairs to my office to get fed this morrning. so sad. worst part yet to come, i have to face telling my daughter on friday evening when i pick her up from a week at camp. she loved the little guy, its not going to be pretty.

so though i may not respond to very many posts anymore, seeing the pain day after day has wore me thin, i do understand how you feel. i have been through the pain, and now go through the pain again.

RIP Funkyman, your time came much too soon.

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[Duncan-MyBuddy]

Mark,
i also did not have a chance to say good-bye to my buddy as he passed during the night. In some ways that really hurt but in other ways its kind of a blessing in disguise. I take some comfort in the fact that he was at least in the presence of my other two dogs during his last moments.

I have thought long and hard about acquiring other pets as the pain is just too great when they eventually leave us. We get attached to these furry critters of ours, get used to having them around, are blessed with the joy, companionship, comfort and happiness they bestow on ourselves during their too short visit with us on earth.

Whenever i think on not adopting another pet, i get visions of all those great looking dogs in the county pen when i adopted my last dog who in most cases would make loving pets for some lucky owner.....But the sad fact is those barking, 'begging to take me home with you' dogs i seen there were forever gone within a week or so.

Whats that old saying? "Its better to have loved and lost than to not have ever loved"

Take care Mark,
-Ken