No Chance To Say Goodbye Options

[LS Support]

my cat Funky died at the vet yesterday while coming out of anathesia from a very routine procedure, he was just over a year old. i didnt want to take him to the vet, but his inner ear had been infected for a while (a polyp, we were to find out yesterday) and the therapy needed to be done. knowing this was a common procedure, i didnt think much about it. when i heard the vet (my ex-wife) crying on the other end, my first thoughts were that one of my kids was in trouble. then she said the words no owner wants to hear: your pet died.

i lost it pretty hard yesterday, who says men dont cry? i did for hours in bed while listening to the rain and thunder outside. he was a sturdy cat, healthy in every other way besides that damn ear. he and i had a good play session the night prior to the procedure, but in the morning i unceremoniously picked him up and stuffed him into the carrier for his final ride. if i would have known i would not see him again, i would have squeezed him til he squeaked. but that was not the case, and i didnt have a chance to say goodbye. thats what hurts the most.

i finally dragged myself out of bed to half eat some dinner. then turned on the tv to block out the sadness when, wouldnt you know, the national ASPCA commercial with sara mclaughlin singing 'in the arms of an angel' came on. well dear friend, i lost it again.

today, i am cried out. the shock has subsided but the pain still remains. i would love to stay in bed with the covers pulled over my head again today, but work and the world has different plans for me. the house already feels empty, tho the kitty was small he was part of my every day routines. i missed him chasing me down the stairs to my office to get fed this morrning. so sad. worst part yet to come, i have to face telling my daughter on friday evening when i pick her up from a week at camp. she loved the little guy, its not going to be pretty.

so though i may not respond to very many posts anymore, seeing the pain day after day has wore me thin, i do understand how you feel. i have been through the pain, and now go through the pain again.

RIP Funkyman, your time came much too soon.

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[LS Support]

thanks everyone for your kind words

as the day goes on i find myself getting sad again. but to be expected, the grief is still fresh. for years since Tribble's passing, i vowed to never get close to a pet again. now ive lost 2 within 2 years, my fear is stronger than ever and i don't think me and animals were meant to be together any longer. perhaps it is best, as owner of this website, to remain detached. i dunno.

Angel, To Where You Are was just what the doctor ordered. i embedded it here and also have included a couple more pics of funky.

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[goliath]

as the day goes on i find myself getting sad again. but to be expected, the grief is still fresh. for years since Tribble's passing, i vowed to never get close to a pet again. now ive lost 2 within 2 years, my fear is stronger than ever and i don't think me and animals were meant to be together any longer. perhaps it is best, as owner of this website, to remain detached. i dunno.

I too was hesitant to let myself get attached to any more pets Mark. For a very long time after Goliath passed away I really didn't want to ever risk letting another love come into my life. I just felt I would never be able to go through anymore hurt and grief. Eventually we adopted Browser and I figured he would be fun to have in our home to liven it up a little. I told myself I was not going to get overly attached again. Well, when Browser went missing one late afternoon and was not found again til after 3:30 in the morning. My heart and mind changed completely. His disappearing rendevouz and miracle rescue wound up bonding us forever. To deprive myself of all the joy and happiness these babies bring into our home and hearts would leave an emptiness inside that would last forever. As long as I have love that lives in me there is a need for me to share it with all who I love so much. My babies are the spice in my life that help me continue to grow. I will love Goliath til the day after forever and give thanks that I ever had such a blessing as he was.

There can be no life without death. Each day is another gift. The many lessons of love these furkids bring is what makes me a better me. I could have avoided all the grief and agony of having lost Goliath if I hadn't made the choice to bring him into my life. But then I also wouldn't have had all the beautiful and wondrous memories he and I made together either.

Love and hugs of comfort from my heart to you and your family, Mark,
Beth