Alex, I Shall Love You Eternally, My Best Friend Ever! Options

[AngelCareOne]

I'm not really certain if I'm in the correct forum but given all the background and facts, it appears most certain that Alex was murdered. Was he sold? That's believable. Was he given away? Perhaps. Was he murdered? Well, I got to my Buddy dog and Styx kitty just in the nick of time before they were euthanized as strays. It is very believable that Alex was murdered. What is not believable are the stories that I was fed as to what happened to Alex because, scientifically speaking, it defies the laws of Physics ergo is impossible to have occurred on this plane of existence. Ummm ... Please forgive my tears. I will tell all about what happened but first, I want so much to speak with my Alex.

Alex - May 1, 1993 to October 16, 2007 Having had a life expectancy of around 40 years.

Dearest Alex, "Once I had the rarest rose that ever deigned to bloom. Cruel winter chilled the bud and stole my flower too soon." You're that rarest rose, my most cherished Alex. My heart beats for you and bleeds for you so still falls the rain.

I promised you that I'd always be there to protect you and keep you from the cold. I failed. Please forgive me! But, now "the floor of Heaven is laid with stars as bright as gold; They shine for you and burn for all to see!" I know you can't come back and set my spirit free but your spirit is free and that's what matters most. I Love You!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhG8zC4npsE

Alex, I truly thought I'd see you again. But "the plans they made put an end to you." I should have known. There were so many 'red flags' and I didn't see them. If only I had known then what I know now. I would have never let them take you into their "care" and none of this would have ever happened. I'm so sorry!

"Won't you look down upon me, Jesus? Will you help me make a stand and just get me through another day? Yes, my body's aching and my time is at hand so I don't know how I'll make it any other way. You know I've seen fire and rain and sunny days that I thought would never end." Even though I'm alone, I've never in my life felt lonely until I lost you, Sweet Alex. I miss you so much!

You're the very best friend I've ever had both human and animal. I can still remember our simple conversations, your funny, mischievous little pranks, your laughter and your tears. I remember the last words you said to me over and over again as you kissed me loudly, "I Love You! I Love You! I Love You!" Alex, I Love You, Too!

I just always thought I'd see you at least one more time again ...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=-T35WXFOmwI

Dearest Alex,

"Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say. And now it's too late to hold you 'cause you've flown away. So far away ...

Never had I imagined living without your smile. Feeling and knowing you hear me. It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together. One Sweet Day!

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Darling I never showed you. Assumed you'd always be there. I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared! And I miss the love we shared!

Although the sun will never shine the same again. I'll always look to a brighter day.
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep. You will always listen as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together. One Sweet Day!

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Sorry I never told you ... All I wanted to say ... "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wxauhK-sn2s

And Alex, "Who can say for certain maybe you're still here. I feel you all around me. Your memory's so clear.
Deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak. You're still an inspiration. Can it be ...

That you are my Forever Love. And you are watching over me from up above.

Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star.
I wish upon tonight to see you smile! If only for a while to know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.

Are you gently sleeping here inside my dream? And isn't faith believing all power can't be seen.
As my heart holds you just one beat away, I cherish all you gave me everyday!

'Cause you are my Forever Love watching me from up above.
And I believe that Angels breathe and that Love will live on and never leave!

Fly me up to where you are, beyond the distant star!
I wish upon tonight to see you smile if only for a while to know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.

I know you're there! A breath away's not far to where you are."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIAQCiMIEEQ

Most Precious Alex, Thank You for the very best 15 years, 5 months and 11 days of my life. Mere words cannot even begin to express how sorry I am that your life was cut so short. You were so very dear, sweet, loving, playful, intelligent, compassionate, trusting with such a kind and gentle mind and soul. You did not deserve what happened to you.

All three of them are now being held accountable for what they did, Alex. I promised you'd have earthly justice as long as there was one breath left in my body. That's what friends are for. Best friends! As for Heavenly Justice? Well, that's not my call but I'm sure that God will take care of it.

I'll meet you at the Rainbow Bridge, Alex! Until then, play, sing, dance, talk up a storm and have lots of fun. Party on and Be Happy! Okay? I Love You My Best Friend, Constant Companion and Feather Child!

All My Love Eternally,
Your Mama Angel xoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Oh My Gawd! Oh My Gawd! I am SO ANGRY!!! I was thinking about what Julia told me on the telephone a couple days ago and the pieces of the puzzle became even more clear. That is IF what she said is true. I immediatly wrote an email to my brother using so much profanity that I sounded like a drunken sailor on leave making whoopie! Oh My Gawd!!!

I'll tone down the language and tell you what I wrote to Tony. You will NOT believe such UGLY words coming from someone like myself. Here goes ...

Sent June 26 at 1:30 AM EST

Tony, I just had a thought and am thinking out loud. You may read this or just delete.

When I was on the phone with Julia G##### and she told me that Alex parrot bit one of her grand kids then "took off" and those were her words: "Took off." Before, she always used the words "flew away." This is the first time she said Alex "took off" so ...

1. Where the freak were they?! Alex has nipped me before and never flown away. I'd have to shake my hand or arm pretty dad gum vigorously and then he would fly to the top of his cage. Every time! INSIDE THE HOUSE! So ...

2. Did they take Alex outdoors?!?!?! THAT is the ONLY way that Alex would have 'Took Of'"!!! "D" IT!!!!!
I am so "M" Freaking pi$$ed as "S" because also ...

3. How old is that grand child? You do NOT let a small child handle a parrot. FREAKING IDIOTS!!! You don't even let an adult handle a parrot who does NOT know how to do so properly. HOW OLD IS THE KID?!

WHERE WERE THEY?!

WHAT THE FREAK DID THE KID DO TO CAUSE ALEX TO FEEL THE NEED TO BITE?!

WHERE THE "H" WAS AN ADULT TO SUPERVISE?!

I CANNOT FREAKING BELIEVE THAT LYING SACK OF "S" (Insert another word for 'street walker' here) OF BABYLON G##### "B" WOULD ALLOW ...

HOW STUPID CAN PEOPLE BE?!?!?! (Rhetorical question.)

I CANNOT EVEN BEGIN TO EXPRESS HOW FURIOUS I AM!!!

FREAKING FURIOUS!!!

I'd better sign off before I stroke out. See ya later.

D ... As in

DA##ED FREAKING MAD AS "H"!!!!! "D" IT!!!!!!!!!!

My Most Cherished Best Friend Alex DEAD and My Life RUINED!!! RUINED!!! SHATTERED!!! Because of ... Gotta go scream and curse ...

*That is the end of my email. I did not sign off.

I sure hope no one thinks me gosh awful horrible for CURSING and being SO ANGRY.

Thank you for letting me talk.

Always,
Angel xoxoxox

PS. Did I say how Freaking Furious I am right now?