Alex, I Shall Love You Eternally, My Best Friend Ever! Options

[AngelCareOne]

I'm not really certain if I'm in the correct forum but given all the background and facts, it appears most certain that Alex was murdered. Was he sold? That's believable. Was he given away? Perhaps. Was he murdered? Well, I got to my Buddy dog and Styx kitty just in the nick of time before they were euthanized as strays. It is very believable that Alex was murdered. What is not believable are the stories that I was fed as to what happened to Alex because, scientifically speaking, it defies the laws of Physics ergo is impossible to have occurred on this plane of existence. Ummm ... Please forgive my tears. I will tell all about what happened but first, I want so much to speak with my Alex.

Alex - May 1, 1993 to October 16, 2007 Having had a life expectancy of around 40 years.

Dearest Alex, "Once I had the rarest rose that ever deigned to bloom. Cruel winter chilled the bud and stole my flower too soon." You're that rarest rose, my most cherished Alex. My heart beats for you and bleeds for you so still falls the rain.

I promised you that I'd always be there to protect you and keep you from the cold. I failed. Please forgive me! But, now "the floor of Heaven is laid with stars as bright as gold; They shine for you and burn for all to see!" I know you can't come back and set my spirit free but your spirit is free and that's what matters most. I Love You!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vhG8zC4npsE

Alex, I truly thought I'd see you again. But "the plans they made put an end to you." I should have known. There were so many 'red flags' and I didn't see them. If only I had known then what I know now. I would have never let them take you into their "care" and none of this would have ever happened. I'm so sorry!

"Won't you look down upon me, Jesus? Will you help me make a stand and just get me through another day? Yes, my body's aching and my time is at hand so I don't know how I'll make it any other way. You know I've seen fire and rain and sunny days that I thought would never end." Even though I'm alone, I've never in my life felt lonely until I lost you, Sweet Alex. I miss you so much!

You're the very best friend I've ever had both human and animal. I can still remember our simple conversations, your funny, mischievous little pranks, your laughter and your tears. I remember the last words you said to me over and over again as you kissed me loudly, "I Love You! I Love You! I Love You!" Alex, I Love You, Too!

I just always thought I'd see you at least one more time again ...

http://youtube.com/watch?v=-T35WXFOmwI

Dearest Alex,

"Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say. And now it's too late to hold you 'cause you've flown away. So far away ...

Never had I imagined living without your smile. Feeling and knowing you hear me. It keeps me alive. Alive!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together. One Sweet Day!

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Darling I never showed you. Assumed you'd always be there. I took your presence for granted.
But I always cared! And I miss the love we shared!

Although the sun will never shine the same again. I'll always look to a brighter day.
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep. You will always listen as I pray!

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven like so many friends we've lost along the way.
And I know eventually we'll be together. One Sweet Day!

Picture a little scene from Heaven.

Sorry I never told you ... All I wanted to say ... "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wxauhK-sn2s

And Alex, "Who can say for certain maybe you're still here. I feel you all around me. Your memory's so clear.
Deep in the stillness, I can hear you speak. You're still an inspiration. Can it be ...

That you are my Forever Love. And you are watching over me from up above.

Fly me up to where you are beyond the distant star.
I wish upon tonight to see you smile! If only for a while to know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.

Are you gently sleeping here inside my dream? And isn't faith believing all power can't be seen.
As my heart holds you just one beat away, I cherish all you gave me everyday!

'Cause you are my Forever Love watching me from up above.
And I believe that Angels breathe and that Love will live on and never leave!

Fly me up to where you are, beyond the distant star!
I wish upon tonight to see you smile if only for a while to know you're there.
A breath away's not far to where you are.

I know you're there! A breath away's not far to where you are."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fIAQCiMIEEQ

Most Precious Alex, Thank You for the very best 15 years, 5 months and 11 days of my life. Mere words cannot even begin to express how sorry I am that your life was cut so short. You were so very dear, sweet, loving, playful, intelligent, compassionate, trusting with such a kind and gentle mind and soul. You did not deserve what happened to you.

All three of them are now being held accountable for what they did, Alex. I promised you'd have earthly justice as long as there was one breath left in my body. That's what friends are for. Best friends! As for Heavenly Justice? Well, that's not my call but I'm sure that God will take care of it.

I'll meet you at the Rainbow Bridge, Alex! Until then, play, sing, dance, talk up a storm and have lots of fun. Party on and Be Happy! Okay? I Love You My Best Friend, Constant Companion and Feather Child!

All My Love Eternally,
Your Mama Angel xoxoxox

[AngelCareOne]

Oh My Gosh! I found posts that I made about Alex both before and after he was abducted. If you're interested, please see below. I really want to write about my feather child here in this safe haven so that I may have those many posts in one place for me to read so please don't feel obligated to look. Honest. Still, here is what I've located so far.

Oh! I know where more is if it's still there. It's when I was expressing much concern about Alex mourning my late husband Kenny, missing Cocoa kitty and Trader (one of my rescued Greyhounds) dog when they passed away. Poor Alex was beside himself and still called out to them all many years later. Sometimes crying and sometimes as though he was playing with them. I'll see if I can't find that as well. Thanks so much for letting me write this "novel" to share and for my own benefit and ... Well, let me set it up a bit.

Here is the direct link to Ditto message board owned by my dear friend Julia (No! Not the "Julia" who is the owner of the management corporation of whom I've spoken and is one of the 3 culprits. This Julia lives in the UK and is so dear, sweet, loving, caring, compassionate and a darned good friend. Okay, the main URL Link to Ditto message board is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/bditto

The direct URL Link to the "Furry and Feathered Friends" forum is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/forums/19/t/Furry-Fe...ed-Friends.html

And the direct URL link to my posts and thread paying Tribute in Loving Memory to Alex is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2776/t/In-Lovi...loved-Alex.html

Go to page two, Post #16

FIRST COPY AND PASTED POST:

Re: In Loving Memory of my Most Beloved Alex
(Posted: 26 Nov, 2007 2:31 PM UK time which is approximately a 5 hour difference)

Firstly, I wish to express enormous gratitude for everyone caring so much, being so dear and supportive. When I say that mere words cannot express the extent of all facets of the relationship between Alex and myself, that is the understatement of the millennium ... Perhaps the understatement of the ages.

I've asked myself several times and given much, much thought to the following question: "Angel, if you could choose between bringing back from the dead your Mom, your Dad, your missing Brother (whom I have been told by several police officers, detectives, private investigators and so on is 99.99% most assuredly dead), your Sister or your Late Husband Kenny, OR Alex, who would you choose?"

The answer is most emphatically Alex and for many, many reasons so please don't think ill of me for choosing a companion parrot over a family member or the best husband that ever, ever walked this earth. Again, I do have very valid reasons as to why I would choose to bring back Alex,

I mention this to let you know just how much a part of me that he was. But! When a person grieves for the loss of a loved one and does not eventually accept the tragedy, get on with their lives and have those fond, wonderful, beautiful, magical, humorous and more ... Memories to carry them through then that person is really grieving for themselves and not the one who died. It's a "selfish" thing so to speak.

Why do I say that? It's because the dead loved one is gone, at peace either in Heaven or no continuation of sprit ("lights out, batteries dead") or has gone back to the stars of which we scientifically really do physically possess properties that comprise stars, or ... Just or. So, if we continue to be sad, grieve terribly, cry a lot ... Then we are doing so out of selfishness (so to speak) because we miss them and want them back. See? We are really grieving for ourselves because our dead loved ones "don't know no better" or are in a far better place.

Rudo's post to me is most significant. "Fond Memories!" They are gone but all the experiences of good, bad or ugly still remain in our thoughts and we can reminisce all we wish ... And that's a wonderful thing indeed!

I'm putting together different posts of "Alex" memories that will have you laughing in stitches, some that will make you say "Awww, how Dear." Some will have you say "That little Stinker, Bad Alex" and all will positively astound you! It helps me so much to share all about Alex and I am eternally grateful to you all for allowing me to do so!!!

I have many Websites that I'll share. Ask Jacqui Stafford because all the information completely blew her mind. Wow!!! You will find that all the Websites (including those you find on your own) do agree that Quakers have the intelligence, ability to understand (comprehend and respond appropriately) plus uncanny ways communicating (letting their feelings, desires and so on be known), behavior, emotions and intelligence of a "normal" four year old human child! Isn't that amazing! Well, you'll see it's ALL true when I share with you all that I wish about Alex.

Okay, this post taking on the length of a novel as I wax rhapsodic. LOL. I again wish to express my tremendous gratitude to all of you with a special Thank You to Rudo. Thank you so very, very much for your response! So special to me! Thank you!

Lastly, Julia? In that PM, you said you had *already* deleted the post you made in this thread "giving me hope" after I responded to you that Alex is 150% gone and/or a 99.99% dead. You did agree with me emphatically. Sweetie, you forgot to delete that post. Would you please do that now? Hugs!

Many Bright Blessings of Love, Light and Laughter to All!!!

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Same thread as above and direct link is ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2776/t/In-Lovi...lex.html?page=3

Posted by me on 6 Dec, 2007 11:01 PM UK time - Again, there is about a 5 hour difference from where I am in the US.

In Loving Memory of my Most Beloved Alex Post #23

Well, let me tell ya, Julia. And, yep. He sure knew exactly what those words meant. I had my first retired Greyhound dog that I'd adopted when I met my late husband Kenny and we both got Alex and Tanzie together as babies. Maiden had bad nightmares but I was able to pet her, wake her, soothe her and pet her when she screamed in her sleep.

After Maiden died, Kenny and I adopted another Greyhound named Trader. Poor Trader had nightmares, too. I still remember the first and ONLY time I tried to pet him and gently shake him as I soothed him with my voice. He was still in a "sleep state" so growled and tried to bite me. Very unlike him so that's how I knew that Trader was not awake yet. After that, whenever Trader would have a nightmare I'd keep a fair distance and yell out as nicely as possible, "Traaaderrrr! Traaaderrrr! Wake Up! Wake up!" Here is where I would clap my hands as loudly as I could and keep talking. "You're having a bad dream! It's just a bad dream, Baby! Traaaderrrr! Traaaderrrr! Wake up! Wake up!" And, I'd clap my hands some more. Yes, I was shouting so Trader could hear me over his nightmare and wake up and that's why I clapped my hands as hard as I could. Poor doggie.

The first thing that Alex learned was to click (actually "pound") his beak on his nest box to imitate me when I clapped at those times. Then, Alex learned on his own from hearing me to yell out, "Wake up! Wake up!" Of course, he would click his beak on his nest box in-between every two calls of, "Wake up!" Soon, Alex learned to recognize when Trader was sleeping and having a nightmare due to the poor dear whimpering, crying or screaming in his sleep. That's when Alex, all on his own, would start shouting as loud as he could and very, very clearly, "Traaddderrrr! Traaddderrr! Wake up! Wake up!" Alex would use his beak and pound as loud as he could on his nest box to wake up Trader. Bless his heart.

Once Alex was certain that Trader was awake and looking at him, he'd say something like, "Hello, Traaderrrr! Hello. What about that? What about that? Okay? Okay?" In other words, Alex would try to say something "conversational" to Trader dog to make sure all was well. Alex was very, very Loving that way. He really was.

I'll bet you'd love to know how Alex knew what was meant by, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Sometimes, he'd say it louder than other times. He learned the words from me when I'd accidentally turn and smack him and feel gosh awful because I didn't see him. I'd snatch him up in my hands and tell him, "Alex, Alex, I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry!" From there, Alex learned by observing me, Kenny, other people, the television (oh yeah, they do pick up words and phrases from television) and put it together to comprehend that "I'm sorry" is an expression of regret, remorse or sympathy. And, that's how he always used that phrase, too. Amazing feather kid. It's pretty much the same way a 3 or 4 year old child learns the meanings of words and phrases.

Alex knew right away the meaning of, "Don't do it" ... And, he always used that phrase and other phrases correctly. He figured out on his own what "Want some" means. It didn't have to be just food either. If he "desired" something then he "Want some" or wanted some. He always said "Hello" or "Hi" as a greeting (until later and I'll get to that) and "Good Bye" but usually "Bye Bye" when Kenny or I or the both of us left the house. Once home again and walking through the door, Alex would begin with his, "Hello! Hello!"

As for the, "Hi!" Well, on occasion he would say "Hi" pretty loud to get my attention especially if I was on the phone. Ask Irene. LOL! It's like a small child pulling on your skirt and trying to get your attention. LOL! Next, I'll tell you what I always said and did once he was older and pulling a temper tantrum just for attention. You'll love that. Hehe!

So sorry not to have written back earlier but my PC bit the dust and I have indeed lost EVERYTHING and I do mean EVERYTHING in my files. Oy. Well, today is another day.

Later and Hugs!

NEXT POST: I made this post long before those 3 ... Did what they did. I was telling everyone about My Alex Feather Child. Here's the direct URL link to Ditto message board ...

http://ditto.yuku.com/topic/2826/t/My-Parrot-Alex.html

12 Jun, 2006 4:49 AM UK Time

Alex just turned 14 years old May 1st of this year and is REALLY smart! Quakers have the intelligence and emotional equivalent to a 4 to 5 year old human!!! Wow!!! I can actually carry a pretty intelligent conversation with Alex because he DOES KNOW the meaning of what is being said to him and he KNOWS what he is saying in response! Remarkable!!!

He loves to talk a LOT and does tricks.

Hmmm? What are some of Alex's favorite phrases? He says SO MUCH that I KNOW I'm leaving out a TON! LOL! But here are some ...

What are ya doin'?
What about that?
Common Alex
Common, Common
Alllllllleeeee******xx, Alllllllleeeee******xx
Mama
I'm Sorry, I'm so sorry!
Don't do it!
Stop it!
Please? Pretty Please?
Thank you!
Traaaddderrrrr .... Traaaddderrrrr
Cocoa. Cocoa.
Hi!!!
I Love You!
Gimme Kiss! (Then makes a kissing sound.)
Wake up! Wake up!
Hello
Bye bye
Good bye
Good Boy
Want some?
And, of course, a lot of conversations.

Ut Oh! Ut Oh! (Then he usually starts "crying" on his own. So cute.)
Tell him: "Gimme Kiss. Gimmie Kiss." (He makes kissing sound) Then say in slightly higher pitched voice, "Thank ... You!" (Still not in "baby talk.")

HIS FAVORITE!!!!
"Be a duck. Be a duck. Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack! Quack!"

All of the above, he loves to say over and over for about 5 to 10 times but the "Be a duck" thing, he will do a lot longer. LOL!

(Say in low sexy voice ...) "Hellloo Baaabbyyy" - he will repeat. Also does it on his own.

Make a kissing sound and say, "I love you" and he will do it in return. He also does that on his own. In fact, he does ALL of these on his own except the burping imitation. He'll start crying, laughing and coughing on his own, for example.

He will call out to "Kenny," Sometimes Sounds like "Kidddnnnnneeeyyyyyy! Kidddnnnnneeeyyyyyy!" Other times it will be very clear and urgent. "Kenny! Kenny! Kenny! Kenny! Kenny!"

He loves to play back and forth with you saying defiantly, "Uhnn Unnnnnnnn!!!" And He will say, "Uhhh Huhhhhnnnnn!!!" Over and over and over, back and forth. So funny! A riot!

He says "Shut up" on his own if he hears anyone curse in person on TV or the radio. Didn't get it from me. I don't know how it happened but he does it every single time. LOL!

Crying, Laughing, Coughing, Purrs like a cat, Rings like a phone and loves doing that! Many times it fools me! LOLOL! If you clear your throat, he will imitate you. If you burp, he will imitate that, too. He LOVES to Burp!!!!!! ROFL!!!!

Gosh, he says SO MUCH more. OH! He sings, "Lullaby of Broadway" but only these words:

"Common along and listen to
The lullaby of Broadway

The la di da and bali hoo
The lullaby of Broadway

Goooood Niiiiight Baaaabyyyy
Goooood Niiiiight
Milkman's on his way.

Sleeeeeppp Tiiiggghtttt Baaabyyyyy
Sleeeeeppp Tiiiggghtttt
Let's call it a day."

He's begun to finish with, "Welcome to the Lullaby of Oldddd Broaddd Wayyyy!" Still, he can't carry a tune. My POOR ears! LOLOL!!!

His best trick is to play dead. He will lie flat on his back in my hand while I move my hand back and forth and up and down and all around. He won't move no matter how much I call to him to wake up and move ... Until I say, "Code Red!" And do a raspberry on his belly. Then he'll suddenly come back to life. Wooo! LOLOL!

He also stands on his head ... And he does some somersaults so to speak. Alex will do some other acrobatics as well.

Ummm? There's SO MUCH MORE! I just can't recall everything right now. You know the "yes" sound you make when you go, "Un hun?" Well, when you ask him yes or no questions, he will either answer "Un huh" (Yes) or "Un Unn" (No). And he means it ... Most of the time. True!!!!!!

He also lets you know exactly what he wishes when he wishes it. He doesn't always get it but he'll sure let you know.

I'll try to remember more and tell you. I hope you enjoyed.

PS. He does say "S of a B" and a couple other things that he didn't get from me. Honest! <<Blush!!!>>

Hmmm ... Let me see if I can find a better photo. BRB ...

PS. About a month ago, I started teaching him the song, "Daisy, Daisy" ("Bicycle Built for Two") and he's picking it up really great! Also, he stays more in tune with the melody, thank goodness. LOLOL!!!

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Re: My Parrot, Alex!
12 Jun, 2006 5:16 AM UK TIme - Approximately 5 hours difference from where I am in the US.

IMPORTANT NOTE: The following Alex "Look Alikes" were because my PC had gone corrupt and I lost EVERYTHING in my files. Since then, I got pretty much most of the important stuff back. Yay!

All of these Quaker Parrots (also known as Monk Parrots) look like their eyes are so small. Alex has larger eyes that look like this ...



Here are a few other Quaker Parrot photos that look just like my Alex feather kid ...





Oh, I LOVE this one! ...



And this one has its feathers all fluffed up and looks like its ready for a nap. Awwww ...



Okay, that's all for now. I hope you all enjoyed!

Me Angel talking again. There are about 3 more pages of Quaker parrot discussion and photographs at the same URL Link I gave up at the top.

Thank you all so much for letting me share! Much Gratitude, Many Blessings and Hugs!!!

Always,
Angel xoxoxoox

PS. Please pardon all typos and I'll repair any URL Links if I got them mixed up. Thanks again so much to everyone!