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Deanna
post Jun 16 2008, 05:56 PM
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HELLO PET LOVERS
I AM HURTING TO WHERE IT'S ALMOST UNBEARABLE. I NEED SOME SUPPORT ON HOW TO DEAL WITH MY LOSS.

I GREW UP WITH NO DESIRE TO HAVE A PET OF ANY KIND, HOWEVER, TWO YEARS AGO, A CO-WORKER OFFERED ME THE MOST ADORABLE WESTIE (PUPPY) THAT I HAD EVER SEEN. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, I FELL COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THIS DOG (NAMED ZOE), I LOVED HER MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE ...SHE WAS MY SHADOW. SHE SLEPT WITH ME, WOKE UP WITH ME, WE PLAYED TOGETHER IN THE MORNINGS IN BETWEEN ME TRYING TO GET MYSELF READY FOR WORK, I LIVE CLOSE TO WORK, I'D COME HOME AND PLAY AND WE'D HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER ...I CAME HOME TO HER AFTER WORK SEEING HER JUMPING UP N' DOWN AT MY FRONT DOOR...ONCE I GOT IN...SHE JUMPED UP AND DOWN ON MY LEG UNTIL I PICKED HER UP (IN WHICH I DID ALMOST IMMEDIATELY), GAVE HER KISSES, RUBBING HER BACK AS SHE LICKED MY FACE. WE BOTH FELT THE LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR EACH OTHER ALL DAY EVERY DAY. AFTER DINNER, SHE GAVE ME "THE LOOK" THAT IT WAS TIME FOR OUR EVENING WALK. AFTER OUR WALK WE WOULD COME HOME AND RELAX AND PLAY UNTIL IT WAS TIME TO GO TO BED TO WAKE UP TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I NEED TO MENTION, I HAVE A LOVING HUSBAND AND TWO KIDS, THAT ADORED ZOE AS WELL, BUT NOTHING LIKE I DID. I WAS GUILTY OF GIVING ZOE MORE AFFECTION THAN TO THEM, BUT THEY UNDERSTOOD, THEY KNEW I WAS ATE UP WITH HER.

WELL, ON LAST THURSDAY (JUNE 12TH) OF ALL DAYS ...(MY BIRTHDAY)...ZOE AND I WERE HEADED INTO THE HOUSE AFTER OUR WALK, ( I ALWAYS UNCLIP HER LEASH ONCE WE'RE ON THE PORCH) ... MY NEIGHBOR HOLLORED AT ME THAT SHE NEEDED TO TALK. ZOE AND I WALKED OVER TO HER PORCH...ZOE ALWAYS WOULD STAY IN OUR YARD AND SHE WOULD FOLLOW ME IF I WALKED OVER TO MY NEIGHBOR ...HOWEVER, ZOE SPOTTED A SMALL RABBIT HOPPING IN THE NEXT YARD AND MADE A MAD DASH TO CATCH IT, RUNNING INTO THE STREET AND SHE GOT RUN OVER, SHE WAS KILLED INSTANTLY. I RAN OUT TO THE STREET, PICKED HER UP, LOOKING INTO HER FACE, SAYING HER NAME OVER AND OVER AND KISSING HER, PLEASE DON'T GO...BUT SHE WAS GONE. FROM THAT MOMENT, I CAN'T SLEEP, EAT, OR BARELY FUNCTION TO GO ON WITH MY NORMAL DAILY ROUTINE. MY FAMILY THINKS I SHOULD BE OVER THE DEVASTATION BUT THE ACCIDENT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND A HUNDRED TIMES A DAY. I HAVE ACCEPTED SHES PASSED, WE BURIED HER IN THE BACK YARD, I HAVE HER A BEAUTIFUL MEMORIAL STONE AND FLOWERS WITH HER PICTURE. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOWS OF MY HOUSE AND SEE HER BURIAL SPOT AND IT JUST KILLS ME. SHE WAS SO SPECIAL IN MY LIFE AND I KNOW THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER ZOE. I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH, I AM CONTINUOUSLY LOOKING FOR HER TO COME AROUND THE CORNER OF ANY ROOM. PULLING UP IN MY DRIVEWAY FROM WORK IS THE ABSOLUTE HARDEST THING NOT SEEING HER ADORABLE LITTLE FACE AT THE DOOR.

I FOUND THIS WEBSITE TO POSSIBLY GET SOME SUPPORT, I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY.
THANKS IN ADVANCE
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myhrtisbrkn
post Jun 16 2008, 11:31 PM
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Deanna,


I always shed a tear when I see we have a new member, because I know that means some little angel is gone, and some broken heart has lost a love that is irreplaceable. On the other hand I know how desperately I needed some support when I found this website. And it has helped me more than I can say to be able to pay back some of the comfort that was given me when I came here.


Keep us posted,
Dayna


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- Deanna   My Heart Hurts   Jun 16 2008, 05:56 PM
- - sissycat   So very sorry to hear of your Zoe's unfortunat...   Jun 16 2008, 07:08 PM
|- - Deanna   QUOTE (sissycat @ Jun 16 2008, 08:08 PM) ...   Jun 16 2008, 08:31 PM
- - myhrtisbrkn   Deanna, Zoe was a beautiful baby and I am so sorr...   Jun 16 2008, 07:30 PM
|- - Deanna   QUOTE (myhrtisbrkn @ Jun 16 2008, 08:30 P...   Jun 16 2008, 09:26 PM
|- - Deanna   Dear myhrtisbrkn I can't thank you enough for ...   Jun 16 2008, 09:37 PM
- - goliath   Your loss of Zoe is so recent and I don't thi...   Jun 16 2008, 07:36 PM
|- - Deanna   QUOTE (goliath @ Jun 16 2008, 08:36 PM) Y...   Jun 16 2008, 09:18 PM
|- - goliath   QUOTE (Deanna @ Jun 16 2008, 10:18 PM) ...   Jun 17 2008, 04:43 AM
|- - Deanna   QUOTE (goliath @ Jun 17 2008, 05:43 AM) F...   Jun 17 2008, 06:29 AM
- - havana   QUOTE (Deanna @ Jun 16 2008, 05:56 PM) HE...   Jun 16 2008, 11:22 PM
|- - Deanna   QUOTE (havana @ Jun 17 2008, 12:22 AM) De...   Jun 17 2008, 06:38 AM
- - myhrtisbrkn   Deanna, I always shed a tear when I see we have ...   Jun 16 2008, 11:31 PM
- - Deanna   Morning Dana and Beth: It is good to read your add...   Jun 17 2008, 06:37 AM
- - Deanna   Morning Buster and Jorge Thank you so much for you...   Jun 17 2008, 06:41 AM
- - myhrtisbrkn   Hi Deanna, Beth is so right ( she usually is ), y...   Jun 17 2008, 02:55 PM
- - matildawong   Hi Deanna, I hope you are doing OK. Just wanted yo...   Jun 25 2008, 01:33 AM
- - Deanna   Thank you Molly I really appreciate your reply. It...   Jul 13 2008, 11:06 AM
- - matildawong   I know it's so cliche to say, but it will take...   Jul 17 2008, 01:43 PM


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