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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 ![]() |
HELLO PET LOVERS
I AM HURTING TO WHERE IT'S ALMOST UNBEARABLE. I NEED SOME SUPPORT ON HOW TO DEAL WITH MY LOSS. I GREW UP WITH NO DESIRE TO HAVE A PET OF ANY KIND, HOWEVER, TWO YEARS AGO, A CO-WORKER OFFERED ME THE MOST ADORABLE WESTIE (PUPPY) THAT I HAD EVER SEEN. TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT, I FELL COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THIS DOG (NAMED ZOE), I LOVED HER MORE THAN ANYONE IN MY LIFE ...SHE WAS MY SHADOW. SHE SLEPT WITH ME, WOKE UP WITH ME, WE PLAYED TOGETHER IN THE MORNINGS IN BETWEEN ME TRYING TO GET MYSELF READY FOR WORK, I LIVE CLOSE TO WORK, I'D COME HOME AND PLAY AND WE'D HAVE LUNCH TOGETHER ...I CAME HOME TO HER AFTER WORK SEEING HER JUMPING UP N' DOWN AT MY FRONT DOOR...ONCE I GOT IN...SHE JUMPED UP AND DOWN ON MY LEG UNTIL I PICKED HER UP (IN WHICH I DID ALMOST IMMEDIATELY), GAVE HER KISSES, RUBBING HER BACK AS SHE LICKED MY FACE. WE BOTH FELT THE LOVE AND AFFECTION FOR EACH OTHER ALL DAY EVERY DAY. AFTER DINNER, SHE GAVE ME "THE LOOK" THAT IT WAS TIME FOR OUR EVENING WALK. AFTER OUR WALK WE WOULD COME HOME AND RELAX AND PLAY UNTIL IT WAS TIME TO GO TO BED TO WAKE UP TO DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. I NEED TO MENTION, I HAVE A LOVING HUSBAND AND TWO KIDS, THAT ADORED ZOE AS WELL, BUT NOTHING LIKE I DID. I WAS GUILTY OF GIVING ZOE MORE AFFECTION THAN TO THEM, BUT THEY UNDERSTOOD, THEY KNEW I WAS ATE UP WITH HER. WELL, ON LAST THURSDAY (JUNE 12TH) OF ALL DAYS ...(MY BIRTHDAY)...ZOE AND I WERE HEADED INTO THE HOUSE AFTER OUR WALK, ( I ALWAYS UNCLIP HER LEASH ONCE WE'RE ON THE PORCH) ... MY NEIGHBOR HOLLORED AT ME THAT SHE NEEDED TO TALK. ZOE AND I WALKED OVER TO HER PORCH...ZOE ALWAYS WOULD STAY IN OUR YARD AND SHE WOULD FOLLOW ME IF I WALKED OVER TO MY NEIGHBOR ...HOWEVER, ZOE SPOTTED A SMALL RABBIT HOPPING IN THE NEXT YARD AND MADE A MAD DASH TO CATCH IT, RUNNING INTO THE STREET AND SHE GOT RUN OVER, SHE WAS KILLED INSTANTLY. I RAN OUT TO THE STREET, PICKED HER UP, LOOKING INTO HER FACE, SAYING HER NAME OVER AND OVER AND KISSING HER, PLEASE DON'T GO...BUT SHE WAS GONE. FROM THAT MOMENT, I CAN'T SLEEP, EAT, OR BARELY FUNCTION TO GO ON WITH MY NORMAL DAILY ROUTINE. MY FAMILY THINKS I SHOULD BE OVER THE DEVASTATION BUT THE ACCIDENT RUNS THROUGH MY MIND A HUNDRED TIMES A DAY. I HAVE ACCEPTED SHES PASSED, WE BURIED HER IN THE BACK YARD, I HAVE HER A BEAUTIFUL MEMORIAL STONE AND FLOWERS WITH HER PICTURE. I LOOK OUT MY WINDOWS OF MY HOUSE AND SEE HER BURIAL SPOT AND IT JUST KILLS ME. SHE WAS SO SPECIAL IN MY LIFE AND I KNOW THERE WILL NEVER BE ANOTHER ZOE. I MISS HER SOOOOO MUCH, I AM CONTINUOUSLY LOOKING FOR HER TO COME AROUND THE CORNER OF ANY ROOM. PULLING UP IN MY DRIVEWAY FROM WORK IS THE ABSOLUTE HARDEST THING NOT SEEING HER ADORABLE LITTLE FACE AT THE DOOR. I FOUND THIS WEBSITE TO POSSIBLY GET SOME SUPPORT, I WOULD APPRECIATE ANY. THANKS IN ADVANCE
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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 635 Joined: 6-September 06 From: texas Member No.: 2,048 ![]() |
Deanna,
Zoe was a beautiful baby and I am so sorry you lost her. I know how it feels to relive that last moment over and over...no matter what takes them from us we all go through that. I wish I could tell you how to make that stop... all I can tell you is that eventually it will stop on it's own. Working through these things takes it's own time... you can't rush it. It has been nearly 2 years since I lost my Mack to cancer, and we lost Sadie last October. I still sometimes look for them in their usual places. I sometimes still find myself thinking I could have and should have done something different. One step at a time, and largely with the help of this website, I have come to the place where my memories make me smile,instead of weep. I smile when I come across their little collars and leashes and things. I'm thankful for the dent Sadie made in the front of my washing machine, and the big scratch Mack made in the the console of my truck. A terrible accident cut sweet Zoe's life too short...but the end of life is not the end of love. It's hard to learn to live with that love when the beloved is beyond your reach, but you will. Meanwhile, maybe we can give you some comfort, and you'll be in my thoughts and prayers, Dayna -------------------- "You in heaven...be aware. When my day comes I will be there. Then open your gates and you will see....on wings you gave, they'll fly to me"
QUOTE Blessed is he who has earned the love of an old dog. Rescue one, until there are none! |
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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 ![]() |
Deanna, Zoe was a beautiful baby and I am so sorry you lost her. I know how it feels to relive that last moment over and over...no matter what takes them from us we all go through that. I wish I could tell you how to make that stop... all I can tell you is that eventually it will stop on it's own. Working through these things takes it's own time... you can't rush it. It has been nearly 2 years since I lost my Mack to cancer, and we lost Sadie last October. I still sometimes look for them in their usual places. I sometimes still find myself thinking I could have and should have done something different. One step at a time, and largely with the help of this website, I have come to the place where my memories make me smile,instead of weep. I smile when I come across their little collars and leashes and things. I'm thankful for the dent Sadie made in the front of my washing machine, and the big scratch Mack made in the the console of my truck. A terrible accident cut sweet Zoe's life too short...but the end of life is not the end of love. It's hard to learn to live with that love when the beloved is beyond your reach, but you will. Meanwhile, maybe we can give you some comfort, and you'll be in my thoughts and prayers, Dayna |
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![]() Group: Pet Lovers Posts: 178 Joined: 14-June 08 From: Kentucky Member No.: 4,792 ![]() |
Dear myhrtisbrkn
I can't thank you enough for your reply. You have brought sincere comfort to me with the explanation of what I am feeling is a part of the healing process and things will get better with time. For example, the thoughts of "the accident" running through my head time after time is normal and there's nothing I can do to stop it ... it will happen on it's own. I do understand I can't rush the pain away. Thoughts go through my mind, "will I ever be happy again"? The sadness of losing Zoe has been so unbearable, she mean't so much to me. Thanks for giving me hope. Your wording of ...the end of life is not the end of love, gave me goosebumps. I truly appreciate your support Dayna Thanks Deanna |
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