I Loved My Sissy Cat Options

[sissycat]

I am so glad I found this site. I have cried and cried over the loss of my best friend---Sissy Cat.
I had her for 2 years and 5 days. Her mother was a stray and she had a litter of 3 kittens all girls. Well I had to keep all 4 of them. All were fixed. So have had her family a while. But this one became my really good friend. How long does it take for the pain to go away. Right now it doesn't seem like it ever will. It has only been a few days. (June 5, 2008)
It doesn't help that I partially blame myself for her death. I usually let all the cats outside for a bit at 6 a.m. and let them back in before going to work. This perticular morning my husband herd a cat meowing and thought I had left one outside. I got up to look and it was a stray at my window. It was 4 a.m. and of course they thought it was time to go outside. I let them out early and they were outside for a longer time. I went out to find my precious Sissy had been hit by a car. She had made it back to my driveway and one of the other cats was setting by her side. I was devastated. All kinds of what ifs and whys and could haves and should haves still run through my head.
I miss her terribly!!!!!! She had slept in my bed everynight for almost two years. She would meow at the food bowl even if there was food in it. All she wanted was a few fresh peices droped on top and she would eat. She would only drink out of a cup on the bathroom sink. She would lick my hand when we went to bed at night to let me know she cared. She would be in my lap when it stormed because she was scared.
Maybe I get too attached to my pets. Sissy especially. I loved her so Much!!!!!! I have made pictures of her to put on my computer desk and home and at my work.
I catch myself talking to her at her grave side and sometimes when I look at her pictures. Am I crazy? Does anyone else do these things. I even went and brushed up her fur off the end of my bed and put it in a baggy. I planted purple mums on her grave today and placed a little cross with her name on it there.
I still have 4 cats, but we are not close like me and Sissy were. I am heart broken how do I heal. Will my crying ever stop? I just don't know how i will ever be right again. I can't eat very much cause my stomache stays in knots and I am not sleeping very well. Thank You for listening to my story of Sissy Cat..
SISSY I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[LoveThem]

What a beautiful picture of your baby. Look into her eyes and see the love that is so very evident there.

I love it when these babies do look directly into the camera.as Sissy did here.. because she is looking at you taking her picture.

Yes, the picture did work and posted very nicely so if you run across any more pictures of Sissy...we will love to look at them and never get tired of looking at pictures of these oh so very very special sweethearts.

Wonder what she was thinking here? Something that would make us smile, I am sure.

Thanks for posting this....it really helps others too...to see such pictures as they make us smile...and we can't have too many smiles happening.

Hugs and wishes for peace and healing for you....but it really all does take time to ease the sadness so eventually we are in control of it because when it is recent....it is in control of us and it truly is heartbreaking. That's why when we feel the sadness, it is important to remember a good moment with our baby...that's what they want us to remember...a memory that will make us smile even if it is only for a moment...and then more good memories create more smiling moments and these are the baby steps toward healing.

So keep posting thoughts, pictures, feelings...whatever feels good to do...is good for you to do.