I Am Very Lonely Already Options

[havana]

I would like to thank to all of you that take their time to read my notes but now espacially to "goliath" "LoveThem" "myhrtisbrkn" and also "jillster" for you kind words and understanding my pain and desperation.
As you know we Buster and I are alone here in St Louis from New York but before that we were in Miami Florida where he was born 11 years ago. I lost my other half in the North Twin Tower in 9/11 and Buster was at the time about 4 years old and since that age we have been together every since. I have been trying to picture my self all alone {what will I do then?] and for more that I think I have no aswer to that.
Another thing that really bodersme is when the time comes to say goodbye [will I be able to stay with him while is leaving me?] I don't think I will be able to do so, even if afterwards I feel my self as a coward and that I deserted him but I think I will prefer not to have my last vision of him dying I just want to see him and remember him alive always. Sorry had to stop for a few minutes becouse It really breaks me into pieces to see him trying to get rid of something that he thinks is on top of his nose with his two front pads not realizing it's the tumors inside bodering him, then I hugged and told him that I wish I could take those tumors off of him with my own hands and that if I could I would but I can't and told him that I am so so very sorry and he looked at me like it was understanding what I was saying to him, am crying now, bye for now and don't forget about me please, I need you.

[LoveThem]

HI, Jorge...Thank you for stopping by my thread and giving me such wonderful wishes.

I am glad to see you are spending your time reading and comforting others here. You are truly an unselfish person...looking to help others when you are worried about Buster.

I did look up on the Internet about nose tumors and of course everything depends upon what caused them but from what I read...there is something called radiation therapy that can help.
I also read that sometimes if treatment is too expensive...it can be cheaper at a vet school. That's something I didn't think of but it makes sense..if there is one close by.. We have medical schools that treat humans less expensive cause it is a school but you still get good treatment.

Anything you wonder about you might want to make a list of questions for the specialist about what he thinks is causing everything...what are the treatment options and which ones result in a longer quality of life. Did your vet that you have now tell you what caused the tumors? I did read some encouraging things that do not involve surgery...I say encouraging meaning there are treatments that seem to show adding a good amount of time for Buster and I pray and hope the specialist will feel there is a treatment to help Buster be comfortable and be with you for quite a while longer.

Hugs to you and Buster