I Am Very Lonely Already Options

[havana]

I would like to thank to all of you that take their time to read my notes but now espacially to "goliath" "LoveThem" "myhrtisbrkn" and also "jillster" for you kind words and understanding my pain and desperation.
As you know we Buster and I are alone here in St Louis from New York but before that we were in Miami Florida where he was born 11 years ago. I lost my other half in the North Twin Tower in 9/11 and Buster was at the time about 4 years old and since that age we have been together every since. I have been trying to picture my self all alone {what will I do then?] and for more that I think I have no aswer to that.
Another thing that really bodersme is when the time comes to say goodbye [will I be able to stay with him while is leaving me?] I don't think I will be able to do so, even if afterwards I feel my self as a coward and that I deserted him but I think I will prefer not to have my last vision of him dying I just want to see him and remember him alive always. Sorry had to stop for a few minutes becouse It really breaks me into pieces to see him trying to get rid of something that he thinks is on top of his nose with his two front pads not realizing it's the tumors inside bodering him, then I hugged and told him that I wish I could take those tumors off of him with my own hands and that if I could I would but I can't and told him that I am so so very sorry and he looked at me like it was understanding what I was saying to him, am crying now, bye for now and don't forget about me please, I need you.

[forduffy]

Hi havana, I have not been able to get online recently too much but I saw your post and it hit home.
I am so sorry that you are going through so much pain right now with little buster. It hurts so much to watch our babies in pain and to watch them suffer. On top of that, it is so hard to have to make any type of decisions while experiencing that pain. Please know that we are here for you in the forum. The people her understand what you are going through and it helps to express your feelings. You have been throug so much since losing your significant other. You have my deepest sympathy and my heart goes out to you. Please give buster many hugs and take care.


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[havana]

Hi havana, I have not been able to get online recently too much but I saw your post and it hit home.
I am so sorry that you are going through so much pain right now with little buster. It hurts so much to watch our babies in pain and to watch them suffer. On top of that, it is so hard to have to make any type of decisions while experiencing that pain. Please know that we are here for you in the forum. The people her understand what you are going through and it helps to express your feelings. You have been throug so much since losing your significant other. You have my deepest sympathy and my heart goes out to you. Please give buster many hugs and take care.


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Thank you also fordufy really appreciate.