Im Losing My Best Friend, and it's killing me Options

[sindii&clyde]

Im gonna lose my little angel, and when she goes im gonna be lost.
She's full of tumors and only has weeks or less to live, i promised i'd never let no one hurt her but im gonna have to decide to kill her.
It's because of her im here today and i owe her everything ( i was abused growing up at home and beaten and bullied at school regularly, if i hadn't got her i would have done myslef in when i was 16, she gave me reason to live) and now i feel like i did when i was 16 ie lost, helpless and numb.

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[LoveThem]

Sindii: There will be many here who will pray for you and Clyde. I pray you two have more quality time. So far what you have said sounds like things are better for now. You just have to enjoy all good times you are blessed with. You and she survived March and that sounds like a little miracle of some kind happened.

You sound like you are doing all the right things for her and you and have the right attitude, which is important. Don't think of this extra time as making it harder to let her go...think of it as a gift to the both of you to be given more quality time together. There is a lot of good advice in the replies I have seen you have above.

As I said before... doing this for the first time ever in your life makes everything much harder to think about and deal with but it is not impossible....we have all had a first time and I'm sure it is one we never forget. You have had the wonderful good and healthy years with Clyde and still have some time. It may be longer than you think...when I read some replies here of one's special pet going on longer than the doctors have predicted. So..you never know what will happen but can enjoy whatever happiness you have together now.

I like your attitude, Sindii. It makes me feel good for Clyde and that as lucky as you feel to have had her, she also is lucky to have someone like you in her life.

One "mom" here said about her loss: The pain of losing her will never ever be greater than the joy of knowing her. If we are lucky, we have many years of that joy and love they give us. We cannot escape the ending but I know I would never trade having any of my girls and boys to avoid the future. I want that joy and unconditional love as long as possible because once you have it , it becomes a part of your life and it is hard to do without, and that's why the door opens in the future for another and sometimes you hope that just maybe your special one's soul was reborn and reunited with you. But if not here...then there cannot be a Heaven without us being reunited with all who have touched our lives in such a wonderful and meaningful way.

In the meantime what you are doing with Clyde is a good positive thing to do. I know she is enjoying her days with you as much as you are with her. Don't grieve for her before it is her time...that will be a waste of the precious time you two are spending together right now. Just watch her and enjoy her and love her.

Take Care...my prayers are with you two every day....she just sounds like a real sweetheart and can't be hugged enough.