Im Losing My Best Friend, and it's killing me Options

[sindii&clyde]

Im gonna lose my little angel, and when she goes im gonna be lost.
She's full of tumors and only has weeks or less to live, i promised i'd never let no one hurt her but im gonna have to decide to kill her.
It's because of her im here today and i owe her everything ( i was abused growing up at home and beaten and bullied at school regularly, if i hadn't got her i would have done myslef in when i was 16, she gave me reason to live) and now i feel like i did when i was 16 ie lost, helpless and numb.

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[forduffy]

[ Part of you will die with her. Part of her will live with you. Does that make sense?
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That sounds about right. Beautifully expressed.
My boy, Duffy had a lot of tumors for several years before we lost him. The vet felt that he was too old to operate and they were pretty topical so they didn't bother him. It was when he was unable to walk that one of the tumors started to bleed that we knew that it was only a matter of time. It sounds to me that Clyde still has a decent quality of life and is savoring these times right now-although, you would know the best as to whether that is true. It is such a difficult decision to be faced with. I guess the way I look at it is that we owe it to them to be sure that they are not in pain and that the quality of their life is up to the standard that they would want. Hopefully, that makes some sense.

My heart goes out to you. The knowledge that it was coming soon and that I might have to make a decision of this magnitude was so much to bear. Please know that you have a great deal of support here.