Im Losing My Best Friend, and it's killing me Options

[sindii&clyde]

Im gonna lose my little angel, and when she goes im gonna be lost.
She's full of tumors and only has weeks or less to live, i promised i'd never let no one hurt her but im gonna have to decide to kill her.
It's because of her im here today and i owe her everything ( i was abused growing up at home and beaten and bullied at school regularly, if i hadn't got her i would have done myslef in when i was 16, she gave me reason to live) and now i feel like i did when i was 16 ie lost, helpless and numb.

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[LoveThem]

Please do not relate my dog's tumors to what Clyde has. I had no choice because she would not eat and I cannot let an animal starve to death. To me when an animal stops eating...that is a major sign.

The tumors my sweet girl had were the size of grapefruits and if it was only one lung..I would have asked about surgery but in both lungs....no, and I never would have taken her in at all if she hadn't stopped eating. The first thing they did was take x-rays. She had beat cancer years before but even though her x-rays were all clear 12 months prior....they weren't clear on the x-ray that day.

Your Clyde is doing everything and still has a twinkle in her eyes. and I laughed when you talked about her walking through the mud puddles.

I don't know where Clyde's tumors are and how the vet felt she was feeling. But I would ask for an estimate of time and I also would ask what to notice when the time came close. It doesn't sound as though he gave you pain pills for her. Can he keep track of the size of the tumors by x-raying her every so often? As a check on what is happening?

You know, you know her better than anyone and you would notice even a small difference in her so keep your eyes on her and love her and watch her and if something bothers you that you see, ask the vet what is happening. So far, she is acting normal and each day she acts that way is a gift to you and her. It seems if she is able to go on a 45 minute walk...she must feel good enough to do that. If she is eating okay...that again means it doesn't bother her to eat.

Again, I would ask the vet what signs to look for in the future that might signal it is time to bring her in.

I still think that 45 minute walk sounds amazing...I couldn't last that long myself.

Take care and give her a big hug and a kiss and tell her just what a wonderful special girl she is and she has touched other hearts here of people who wish her and you some more quality time.