Im Losing My Best Friend, and it's killing me Options

[sindii&clyde]

Im gonna lose my little angel, and when she goes im gonna be lost.
She's full of tumors and only has weeks or less to live, i promised i'd never let no one hurt her but im gonna have to decide to kill her.
It's because of her im here today and i owe her everything ( i was abused growing up at home and beaten and bullied at school regularly, if i hadn't got her i would have done myslef in when i was 16, she gave me reason to live) and now i feel like i did when i was 16 ie lost, helpless and numb.

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[sindii&clyde]

The top 2 pictures of her out and about were only taken yesterday on a nice 30min walk and she jumps up everytime i stick my trainers on wanting to go out for a walk. Shes always happy to see me, even when i just pop out of the room and back in. She eats loads and loads and still gets up to go to the toilet in the middle of the night and lets us know if we are a sleep. She even guards any food of hers from the others cos she is the alpha of the 4 and still knows it.

For me to let her go now doesn't seem right, she still loves here life and manages 4-5 walks a day, sometimes a long one too. Some people may feel it's the right time but trust me when the time does come and i feel she doesn't want to hang around i won't let her suffer.

Only thing is i daren't let her walk up and down the stairs as her back end is weaker but apart from that and her tumors i can say she still is happy for now. Ask the postie, everytime he posts she's up like a shot barking at the door.

ps my girlfriend has promised to tell me when she thinks it right, as my judgement may end up cloudy.