My Cat, April 4th, So Sad, best friend died Options

[Claire]

On April 4th, after a long illness and having dealt with in-home hospice care and cat Alzheimers (CDS), which I never knew existed before, my sweet Mister M died at almost 22 years old. I never knew what it meant to say you are beside yourself with grief but I do now.

When my other cats died, I was also heart broken but I think I always had their brothers or sisters with me, that isn't true now. I had a kitten who was hit by a car, and Mister's big brother had a disease and had to be euthanized when he was in his teens. It isn't easy whenever or however it happens. I pick up Mister's ashes. mixed with his brother's on Monday we think.

Since he went on so long, I think I'd fooled myself, despite his failing health and mental state, into thinking he was eternal. We depended on one another. I'd not lived in a single-cat household for a long time.... He was our child.

I just don't know what to say. My best friend, my neighbor downstairs was up here weeping. He seemed eternal. I see him everywhere. I still go out and open the drawer to get him his food. I say hi when we walk in the door.... My heart is ripped apart. I'd tried to ready myself for the longest time and now, I'm falling apart. We lost my mom to Alzheimers and cancer, which my sweet cat also had back in July. He has helped me through so much and I was his nurse for so long these last months. I work from home and even though he'd lost his meow quite a while ago the house seems farr too quiet. We used to talk a lot about his brother, who died in 1990. Mister was born in 1986 and lived until 2008. Just unbelievable even though his death should have been and was expected. I have to go on, but it seems impossible somehow.

Thanks for listening.

Mister M's mom

[Bue's Mommy]

Claire, I'm so sorry for your loss of Mr. M. 22yrs is certainly a gift. The people here are very caring, and giving of themselves. I'm so glad you found this forum.

I never knew cats got alzheimers, wow!

Do you have any pics of Mr. M, I would love to see you post them. I think it would help with your grieving process. I know it helps me.

Take Care