Recent Losses, (wanting to check in with everyone) Options

[LittleGirl's...]

Hi everyone,

Sorry I haven't been around to help others through their losses! This past winter I went into a depression that was so bad that I didn't know whether I'd come out of it (not out yet, but functioning again). I lost my mom on Dec. 16, and I lost my dog Farmey on Feb. 8.

For some reason I couldn't even come here and share. Even to type a few words seemed like too much of an effort, but I know now that this is where I belonged, and if I had made it here, it could have made a big difference.

I'll attach a picture of Farmey (whoops - just tried 2wice and I can't. I keep getting error messages). To give you just a little background, I adopted him 2 years ago when he was a "chained dog", outside 24 hours a day (in MAINE!!), almost 365 days a year. He was 13 then, and shortly after I adopted him, he became ill from tainted pet food ! He survived that and went on to have a fulfilling life. He brought joy to everyone whose life he touched.

For the past year of his life, he used a wheelchair/walker on his walks, and he loved using it. He still ran just like a puppy!

I miss both him and my mom dearly.

I'm sorry about all of the losses you all are experiencing. I will spend more time here and catch up with you.

Love to all,

Kathy

[toonie]

Dear Kathy, I am so sorry to hear of your grief, quite a heavy load, such a kind and loving person as you would be feeling very down after two so severe blows in less than two months, your dear mom then the sweet lovable dog that you loved so well. What a world of good you did to that old guy, what a beautiful soul he got to have in an otherwise dull life. You taught him the joy of living free, you made it possible, even in his old age and despite his lameness for Farmey to know the comfort of being loved and cherished. With all that you are, I have no doubt that your love, so strong and so pure not only goes on but that it is being returned to you by your loved ones, never really departed.
A long time ago, Furkidlets's Mom shared this link with us http://www.georgeanderson.com/messagesofhope2.htm
I particularly liked "The Shadow You Cast." It is an article for you Kathy.
I also really appreciated Goliath's comments to you in this post, so beautifully expressed, so sincere too, that's what makes it so beautiful, I cried all through it. The sentence I loved most in Goliath's post was

I have found inspiration and the encouragement to continue growing spiritually

How wonderful when such losses are eventually transformed into more personal and spiritual growth. Beautiful as you are, I know you will make it through somehow, in your own way, for yourself, for all of us here, your great love will survive and thrive. Take care, I hope that your moments are very gentle and that love will surround you wherever you go.