So Sad!, Loss of my friend Options

[Victoria]

Hello all
I just lost my best friend on Sunday. He was just short of his 15th birthday. He had been sick for about 2 months. I tryed everything to help but nothing did. His name was J-dog, he was a very speical dog a Jack Russell. This is the hardest thing I've had to do. I'm having a really bad day today. I have two other dogs another JRT she is almost 13, and a Lab who is 13. What a crew! Both of my other dogs are joining me in my grief. I'm worried about my Lab he too is just hanging on to life by a thread. I don't know how I will deal with back to back grief like this. The Lab is my husbands dog, J-dog was mine and my other JRT is both of ours. She is having a hard time dealing with Jays death. I try not to cry around her, but it hard because she won't let me out of her sight. I quess I need some encouragement on how to deal with her. Gosh I miss my buddie so much....

[Victoria]

Up date on Goose. Goose has been holding these last weeks. He's in good spirits, His same goof ball self. What a great dog. But the down hill slid has begun! I can see it in his eyes. His kidney failure is getting the best of him. I feel bad having to poke him with needles every day. And its getting harder on both of us. He puts up with it but I know it hurts. I have been able to trick him into drinking more water by putting it in his food every day. He is still eating well. But he does not drink anymore , besides what I put in his food.
I feel like I have not been able to grieve for my J-dog because of all the time Goose is taking. I'm still very sad at the lost of my buddy! And to top all this off our best freinds dog is dying too. His name is Bodie and he is Goose's buddy too.
This is truly the hardest part of dog ownership. My trio is shrinking to one... Somedays I do fine, but others I still cry. On top of all this my sister inlaw passed away a few weeks ago. I feel a little gulity because my grief for my dog has been so much harder than for her. Just feeling a bit overwhelmed...