Death Of My Furry Baby Boy Chihuahua, Please help me with my loss of Goliath Options

[goliath]

My baby boy Goliath, a chihuahua, passed away 2 months ago and I am suffering an emptiness that is unbearable most of the time. Is there anybody out there who can help me through this pain? He was the light of my life and the best friend I ever had.

[goliath]

The sun didn't shine today and I found myself looking for Goliath in the clouds and talking to him often during my day at work. The tears came though in a much quieter way. Never in my life have I suffered the pain and agony of losing a living creature like I am suffering through the death of my very special baby boy chihuahua, Goliath. I have lost many loved relatives over time including my parents, grandparents, friends, and other pets. And while I loved ALL of them to the depths of my soul, my loss of Goliath has afftected me much deeper than any of the other losses in my life.

I looked at his picture book today and read all the stories I wrote about him and his sister Gidget. On the 25th of this month my Goliath would have turned 11 yrs. old. While I was looking at their pictures and reading their stories I was ok til I looked at the pictures of Goliath's first birthday party and then I fell apart. My heart so aches for him and my arms long to hold him and cuddle. He truly is the best thing that ever happened to me in my life.

He is the first thing I always think about in the morning and my last thought at night before bed. I have had many dreams of him and I hold his baby quilt that I made for him when I brought him home as a little puppy just like I am a baby hanging onto my security blanket. I have his first toy, his first paw prints, his baby teeth, his first collar and leash, and many other things.

O dear God please ease my pain!