Lost My Love, kidney and liver failer Options

[Murphy's Mom]

Three days ago we brought our baby into the vet to get checked out why she was not walking ok and why she was throwin up. She wouldnt eat and wouldnt play. When the vet told us she was in a serious way, we all thought maybe she would still be able to pull through. Thurday night we had to put her to sleep. She was in alot of pain and couldnt even lift her head up. I am so devestated. I can't believe she is actually gone. It was so hard this morning to wake up and not have to get her, her breakfast bone. And even harder on our other dog who always eats breakfast with her. He kept looking for her and she wasn't there. It just broke my heart. I know she is in a better place but i miss her so terribly and it hurts so much. This is the second loss we have had in 10 months. They were both my childhood pets. They grew up with me and comfurted me through so much. And now they are both gone. That is one thing they never tell you when you get a fur baby. that the loss is so painful. . . .but the life they give you while they are there is something i wouldnt trade for the world. I know it takes time to heal and that we will never stop missing her, but i just wish that i could hug her once more and give her a kiss on the head. My poor baby is gone. . . . i dont know how it will ever be the same. . . .

[LoveThem]

I read your other thread and this one and I am so very sorry your baby had to leave you. Many of us have been there so many times....others who do not care for animals wonder why we take them in knowing a day of pain comes but they do not understand what you have said about the joy having them brings. With my Little Guy as my recent loss....I had over 16 years of absolute joy loving him and being loved by him. I had 8 weeks of horrible worry which turned out badly for him...I hate cancer.. and now I will have pain because that is part of the package that comes with these babies. I know this time comes but I tell myself when I first get them that I may have many wonderful years and so many times I do. I have had short times, medium, and he was my longest and I do not regret having any of them....puppies, dogs, cats...loved them all.

You said you don't know how it will ever be the same...it can't be the same. The loss of a baby changes our lives forever but the good memories and pictures we have of them happy and healthy cannot be taken away from us. Sometimes I think they are taken to make room in the future for another cause I know each baby I lost...I would never had known if it wasn't for the one before it. And, I am thankful for every one I knew..they were all sweethearts. I did the best I could until it was taken out of my hands. I hate those decisions but I loved them too much to let them suffer in a hopeless situation...that's when it is taken out of my hands to give them more time...quality time, that is.

But I will say ...........I spoiled them the whole time I had them and I don't regret that for one moment. But we all share the pain of losing them, each was special to us but the pain is universal to all of us. Take Care. I wish you could hug your baby too. I know that wanting feeling too well.