Just Lost My Cat..., My 19 year old cat was hit by a car Options

[cfholden]

Our much cherished 19 year old Chris Craft the cat didn't come home last Saturday night, or Sunday morning. My husband went looking for him and found him, apparently having been hit by a car, and left in a dumpster. My husband came home screaming, and in shock. He won't describe to me exactly what he saw. But says it was bad. We both can't stop the crying and I've never felt such pain. I've watched both my parents die before my eyes, but this feels worse. I had time to prepare for my parents (years actually) .and although I cried for them, this pain is different. More intense, and the emptiness in our home without our cat is unbelievable. I don't want to go home. I feel such pain for my husband who had to find him. I keep reliving the moment he came home screaming and crying, and then I break into tears.
I will miss my little guy so much. Sunday was the worst day of my life.

[cfholden]

Last night we were opening the mail, and opened a letter from the clinic that did the private cremation . In it was a rainbow colored page with the Rainbow Bridge poem written and at the bottom was an ink print of 2 of Chris Craft's paws Talk about losing it. It was a very sweet thing for them to do.
We are having a little memorial "service" this Friday evening with neighbors who knew and loved Chris Craft. Has anyone had one of these? We're not sure what to do. I don't know if my husband or I can keep it together to talk. I have been talking a lot more to people and can get through conversations with out crying. He holds it in and then breaks apart. And we break down, so what.....??