Just Lost My Cat..., My 19 year old cat was hit by a car Options

[cfholden]

Our much cherished 19 year old Chris Craft the cat didn't come home last Saturday night, or Sunday morning. My husband went looking for him and found him, apparently having been hit by a car, and left in a dumpster. My husband came home screaming, and in shock. He won't describe to me exactly what he saw. But says it was bad. We both can't stop the crying and I've never felt such pain. I've watched both my parents die before my eyes, but this feels worse. I had time to prepare for my parents (years actually) .and although I cried for them, this pain is different. More intense, and the emptiness in our home without our cat is unbelievable. I don't want to go home. I feel such pain for my husband who had to find him. I keep reliving the moment he came home screaming and crying, and then I break into tears.
I will miss my little guy so much. Sunday was the worst day of my life.

[cfholden]

I was just driving a back from work and decided to listen to quiet music, as opposed to upbeat music, and cried so hard I could hardly see. Maybe that doesn't work for me.
I can at least tell people now without breaking down.I will definitely keep Chris Craft's things around. So far they have been comforting. I did finally move his food dish. But not anything else.